Chapter 78 Kazumi’s Thoughts
The spiritual world is influenced by the material world.
This was a useless conclusion Kazumi reached after reading “Sex and Instinct,” a book that described human emotions and instincts.
This was a given theorem, just like how people feel drowsy when sick and lose interest in their surroundings, or how they might stay up all night with excitement after receiving a confession from a loved one, full of energy.
The body, as the material foundation, determines the spirit, which is the superstructure. Love, in essence, is merely a series of physiological responses caused by hormone secretion, creating the illusion of “I like him.” Ultimately, it’s just the biological instinct for reproduction.
However, in humans with sentience, it is given a more special meaning.
This has led to Kazumi’s current awkward situation. Kazumi’s female body, coupled with her original body’s extremely high affection for Sato Shinichi, makes her unconsciously desire more intimate contact with the boy she likes.
But Kazumi, possessing a male soul, absolutely does not allow such a thing to happen, whether it’s dating a man or eventually getting married and having children.
It is absolutely impossible!!!
Therefore, Kazumi is currently seeking a solution, hoping to resolve this matter from a physiological level.
“But is there no other way besides suppressing estrogen secretion?!”
Half-lying on the bed, Kazumi rubbed her head with a headache. Next to her was the remaining half of “Sex and Instinct,” which she had finished reading early that morning.
However, despite reading many books on this subject recently, Kazumi couldn’t find a good solution to this problem.
Suppressing physiological instincts is inherently contrary to biological evolution, and generally, no one would do such a thing.
Regarding hormones, Kazumi has some understanding. Due to her hobbies, she had come into contact with the “trap” community for a period, and there were some good drugs that could increase estrogen for men who wanted to become women.
“Are there any drugs that can suppress estrogen secretion?”
The problem is that she doesn’t want secretion, but suppression!! She doesn’t know if that community has such things, or if such a community even exists in this world!!
However, this did open up a new line of thought for Kazumi. If she couldn’t suppress estrogen, could she increase male hormones?
Some fitness drugs, combined with intensive training, can achieve this. Look at many national athletes; to pursue better athletic performance, female athletes become more masculine than men.
Compared to drugs for suppressing estrogen, things in this area are easier to obtain and have slightly wider access routes. After all, in a world of ability users, the emphasis on physical training is bound to be greater than in the world she came from.
Thinking of this, Kazumi’s mind suddenly conjured images of the “protein queens” she had seen in her previous life.
“……”
“To become like that to suppress instinct, the price is too high!!”
“Why should I go to such lengths for Sato Shinichi, a virgin loser!!”
“Can’t I just consider him as a dog I’ve raised!”
Angrily dispelling the image of herself evolving into a neither-man-nor-woman in her mind, Kazumi sat up and said indignantly.
If it were just to control her body’s instincts to that extent, the cost would be too great. Both the investment and the ensuing questioning and criticism would be unbearable for Kazumi.
Moreover, Sato Shinichi is such a good meal ticket, and Kazumi is genuinely not planning to let him go easily.
Sato Shinichi’s silly and honest smile inexplicably appeared in her mind, and Kazumi’s cold face softened considerably. She picked up her phone to check, and indeed, there were no extra messages. She then looked at the time, which was just past seven o’clock, and a hint of understanding flashed in her mind.
After all, not everyone is like her, being able to maintain normal activities with little sleep. Moreover, Sato Shinichi is an injured person, probably still sleeping.
Kazumi has now truly thought it through. If she cannot completely overcome it, she should accept and utilize it. In the adult world, there are no absolute black and white choices; cutting losses is the true way for adults.
Furthermore, for Kazumi, controlling a young boy like Sato Shinichi, who is in the ignorant stage of adolescence, is incredibly easy. It’s only been a few weeks since she arrived, and he’s already been trained to be obedient, willingly contributing his value to her.
Thinking this way, it doesn’t seem so bad. All she needs to give is the title of girlfriend, and occasionally chat with him and play along in real life.
Kazumi might not be good at acting, but when it comes to online flirting, she’s an expert!!
In just a few days, Sato Shinichi’s feelings for her have reached a very high level. He has no complaints about any questions she asks or things she asks him to do.
If she hadn’t considered that he has a professional hero grandfather and wanted to maintain her consistent persona, Kazumi would have openly asked him for it long ago.
However, for now, it’s a long-term investment. If she can gain the approval of his family, it would mean having the highest social background. Kazumi believes she is doing quite well in this regard.
As for other dangers?
Please, to put it bluntly, even if she and Sato Shinichi were thrown into the same bed, if she said no, would that guy dare to lay a hand on her?
Heh, is this what a simp looks like? It’s truly laughable!
Perhaps he will grow into a mature man in the future and understand the dangers of society and how formidable cunning women are.
But for now, he’s just a pitiful golden retriever she’s raising, a wretch who has lost himself in the confusion of adolescent emotions!
Shaking her head with some disdain, Kazumi made a “tsk tsk tsk” sound, unsure if she was apologizing for her manipulative behavior or feeling that Sato Shinichi’s tragic outcome was not worth it.
“Gurgle gurgle gurgle—”
She reached for the teacup beside her to take a sip, but her phone vibrated with a notification at that moment.
Abandoning the teacup with a speed she herself couldn’t even track, she picked up her phone. A relieved smile appeared on her face, which had been tense moments before, after seeing the screen.
At this moment, on the screen of the phone in Kazumi’s hand, an avatar with a small flame and a heart icon was continuously flashing.
[Good morning! ❤️]
