Chapter 108: The Objective Laws of Emotional Development
Everything’s development always carries its own unique objective laws, or perhaps inertia?
Many things, in fact, the moment you take the first step and make a decision, the events that will happen afterward are already predetermined.
When faced with the same things, different moods and states lead to completely different decisions.
The young girl in the kitchen, wearing an apron that didn’t quite fit her figure, was still mechanically scrubbing the plate in her hands even though it was already clean. Her cheeks were flushed red as she stared blankly ahead.
“What am I even doing!!”
It was only now that Kazumi remembered what she had done just now, both the heartfelt words she had spoken to the young man and her final actions.
It was truly terrible!!!
Resonant emotions are truly a terrifying thing. She already had a high level of affection for the young man, and combined with his foolish sincerity, she really couldn’t bring herself to hate him.
She thought that even if she was destined to leave, she didn’t want to play with his feelings like a scumbag before leaving. Otherwise, what difference would there be between her and the kind of person she hated the most?
Thinking that she had to at least help this clueless dog grow, or rather, for her, a theoretical master with zero practical experience, to teach the children the correct way to love and prevent them from being hurt more in the future, it could also be considered her compensation to him.
“And then you compensated yourself into someone else’s arms?!”
She jumped up in exasperation, not knowing whether she was cursing herself or her own body, which was always beyond her control.
In fact, this state could be easily explained; it wasn’t schizophrenia or anything like that. After all, in such a situation, she was still mostly aware of herself, not in a pathological state where she didn’t even know what she was doing.
If she had to find a state to compare it to, it would probably be like when she was 14 years old and wanted to reward herself on a long-awaited weekend, only to find that the SD card with the downloaded videos she had paid for with her allowance had been left in the classroom. So, in the middle of the night, she ran back to school alone in the rain, just to retrieve that precious “study material.”
That state of knowing exactly what you’re doing but being unable to control yourself due to arousal, that’s probably the best description of her current situation.
“Why do girls also have such a state? No, thinking about it this way, does it mean I’m ovulating for him???”
Terrible thoughts resurfaced in her mind. Kazumi quickly cleaned the last plate in her hands, wiped the water off them, and at the same time took off her apron.
“No, no, Kazumi Shimizu, calm down. Things are still developing in the direction you want. Accidents, these are all just accidents, but they won’t affect the destined outcome!!”
Taking a deep breath, Kazumi whispered to herself, then remembered that she had wasted a lot of time in the kitchen due to her daze. There were guests waiting in the living room.
She still had to change clothes and then sort out her previous plan. Sato Shinichi’s arrival was too sudden, and Kazumi hadn’t prepared properly. If she acted on her plans carelessly, she would definitely make mistakes. With Kazumi’s personality, she was unwilling to implement this matter without having made comprehensive preparations and arrangements.
However, making others wait for too long was ultimately impolite. Kazumi herself was not someone who liked to wait; similarly, knowing that kind of torment, she was always punctual in everything she did.
Thinking this, Kazumi quickly sped up her actions and turned her head to look towards the living room, wanting to see if Sato Shinichi had been waiting too long.
Then, she saw the blond young man still in the same pose, gazing ahead with a foolish grin.
“……..”
“I’ll just slowly fiddle with my own things first…”
…
Sato Shinichi felt as if he were dreaming. The series of events had left him somewhat unable to react, as he had never experienced anything like this before. However, he still knew that Kazumi, it seemed, had forgiven him just like that?
Even so, Sato Shinichi’s mood wasn’t particularly good. He could understand the words the young girl had said, but because he was the person involved, he hadn’t grasped them immediately.
It was probably not just what he had done before, but even the way he was apologizing now had displeased the young girl. Although Kazumi’s words carried a hint of blame, the young man could still keenly feel the strong concern for him within her words.
“When two people are together, they should be equal. Kazumi doesn’t want me to apologize to her in this posture…”
He murmured the words the young girl had earnestly told him before, and Sato Shinichi seemed to recall the wonderful touch of the young girl leaning into his arms at that moment. Even though it was only a brief half-minute, the wonderful feeling of being believed and understood made him unable to find any other way to express himself now except to sit there and smile foolishly.
He knew he was stupid, especially when it came to love. Sato Shinichi also knew that having never experienced anything, he was too naive in this regard. But precisely because of this, he was so determined to care for and approach Kazumi Shimizu.
Because Kazumi was his girlfriend, the girl with whom he wanted to walk together in the future, the girl he wanted to protect with his life.
He also knew that his clumsy self might also upset the young girl, and he was prepared to apologize earnestly and bear everything.
But the result was that the young girl scolded him with half blame and half heart-to-heart talk, and finally concluded the day with a gentle hug.
“Kazumi is really too good!!!”
Even without having dated, whether it was from learning from friends around him or from watching TV and reading books, Sato Shinichi knew that a girl getting angry was a very terrifying, or rather, unreasonable thing.
Compared to that, his Kazumi was simply an angel!!
“Click—”
The sound of the room door opening broke the young man’s fantasy. He looked up and saw the young girl, who had already changed into her uniform, standing prettily in front of him, holding a few small packaged bags and tossing them in front of him.
“Sorry to keep you waiting. Here, some snacks, eat them on the way.”
