Chapter 443: Bang
I had been to places and seen others succeed while I failed. I understood this in my heart, and knew my own efforts.
But effort alone could not translate into strength.
I had once read an analysis of Gemini, which said they weren’t lacking in social skills, but rather had poor social capabilities.
At the time, after reading it, I felt a deep resonance.
Because I believed I just wasn’t working hard enough, and wasn’t inherently flawed.
As long as I worked hard, worked with all my might, I would eventually catch up to others.
It was like in class, I saw those excellent students who achieved good grades.
I knew the effort they put in behind the scenes. In fact, I even thought I put in more effort than them.
I even snuck out to the playground to run at night. To increase my study time, I only ate one meal set for lunch and finished eating within thirty minutes.
Those saved moments made me feel happy.
Because I had earned my own opportunities, opportunities gained through my own hard work.
But after years of effort, I increasingly felt something was wrong.
Not only had I not caught up to others, but my efforts had not transformed into strength.
I studied hard, yet my test scores remained below average.
Every time I looked at my efforts and then at my abysmal results, I would fall into a long silence.
Where did all my effort go?
Was it a lack of talent?
Or was my method of effort flawed?
I once believed that hard study would bring rewards.
But reality had given me a harsh slap.
I studied diligently. To maintain my focus, I never initiated conversations with classmates and refused some students’ well-intentioned offers.
I was stubborn, wanting only to surpass others academically.
But until now, I realized that talent truly exists.
I thought I had worked hard, I thought I had studied diligently, I thought I could succeed.
I didn’t understand why I was this way.
I looked at the girl before me, listening to her speak.
She was impressive, or rather, Geminis were impressive.
I lacked the talent for socializing, but they possessed it.
I longed for social interaction, but lacked the innate ability.
I wasn’t missing limbs, I just lacked a talent, but I bore many consequences for this lack.
I had once tried to learn how to socialize.
I had also reached out to others and proactively helped them.
But others were unwilling to have too much contact with me.
I looked at those popular students; with just a glance or a smile, many would talk to them.
I felt some envy and some jealousy.
I never considered myself a bad person; I just craved attention.
I had invested a great deal of energy, all for the purpose of finding common topics and shared interests with others.
But I spent a vast amount of time learning, summarizing, and watching to gather this information.
However, when I tried to express what I had learned, an awkward situation often arose: others didn’t understand, others didn’t accept it.
Looking at my efforts, it felt like a joke, yet I persisted.
Every day I paid attention to what others liked, what they disliked, and their every move.
But my social circle did not expand.
I knew this was the difference in talent.
I thought effort could compensate for a lack of talent, but I overestimated effort and underestimated talent.
Effort is important, but talent is even more important.
I simply lacked the talent for socializing. I could study diligently, but socializing was something that couldn’t be solved by effort alone.
If someone likes you, they will like you regardless of what you do.
If someone dislikes you, no matter how much effort you put in, they will still dislike you.
This is the reality of things.
I looked at the girl before me. She had waterfall-like hair and a little face that made me feel a mixture of jealousy and helplessness.
Looking at her, I seemed to see my antithesis.
She could easily do things I couldn’t.
Watching her chat with her classmates, her eyes sparkled with light and laughter.
And me? I could only sit alone, looking at books, at silent words.
I wanted to talk to everyone, but I didn’t know what to say.
I wanted to help others, but they didn’t give me the chance.
I was just a civilian.
No talent, no background, and nothing to flaunt.
But I worked hard. I worked hard to change my destiny.
Yet destiny seemed to be playing a joke on me.
I didn’t know what I had been working towards for so long.
I felt somewhat lost and unsure of what to do.
I looked at the girl before me. She had a pair of bright eyes that seemed to see through everything.
Looking at her, I felt a pang of discomfort.
Why could she possess so much?
Was it her effort?
I didn’t understand, only feeling that it was unfair to me.
I had given so much, why couldn’t I receive a reward?
I was unwilling to accept this, unwilling to fail like this, unwilling to give up.
So I continued to work hard, continued to persevere.
I believed that as long as I worked hard, I would definitely succeed.
I knew this idea was childish, but it was the only support I had to keep going.
I looked at the girl before me. She was excellent and beautiful.
Looking at her, I suddenly felt I wasn’t good enough for her.
Not in appearance, but in strength.
I wasn’t as confident as her, not as excellent as her, not as charming as her.
I was just a self-conscious person.
I didn’t want to admit it, but that was the truth.
I looked at the girl before me. She was like a shining star, while I was just an insignificant pawn.
I felt envy and a touch of jealousy.
I also wanted to become like her, but I couldn’t.
I knew this was the gap between us.
I also knew this gap was difficult to bridge.
But still, I didn’t want to give up.
I continued to work hard, continued to persevere.
I believed that one day, I would be as excellent as her.
I didn’t know if this belief was right or wrong.
But I had no other choice.
I looked at the girl before me. She suddenly turned her head and looked at me.
Our eyes met, and I felt a sudden panic.
I dared not look into her eyes; I was afraid.
I was afraid she would see the deep-seated inferiority within me.
I lowered my head, not daring to look at her again.
But then she suddenly smiled, a sweet, beautiful smile.
“What’s your name?” she suddenly asked.
I could hardly believe she would speak to me.
I was nervous, my speech stumbling.
“I… my name is Lin Fan,” I said.
“Lin Fan, you’re very special,” she said, smiling.
I was surprised. Was I special? I didn’t think so.
I was just an ordinary person, with nothing special about me.
I didn’t understand why she would say that.
“You work very hard,” she said, smiling, as if she had seen through my thoughts.
My face flushed. She actually knew I worked hard.
“You don’t need to be self-conscious; everyone has their own shining points,” she said softly.
I was touched. She was so understanding.
Looking at her, I suddenly had a strange impulse.
I wanted to be her friend, I wanted to chat with her.
But I didn’t know what to say.
I felt nervous and a little scared.
I was afraid of saying the wrong thing and making her dislike me.
She seemed to see through my thoughts and smiled, “You don’t need to be nervous; I’m not a terrifying monster.”
I smiled too, a happy smile.
I knew I had met a good person.
Looking at her, I suddenly had a feeling that we would definitely become good friends.
I didn’t know where this feeling came from.
But I believed it wholeheartedly.
I looked at the girl before me. She was excellent and beautiful.
Looking at her, I suddenly felt a warmth in my heart.
I knew I was no longer alone.
I had a friend, and I was happy.
Looking at her, I silently thanked heaven.
Thank you for letting me meet her.
I didn’t know what the future would hold.
But I believed that as long as she was by my side, I could bravely move forward.
I looked at the girl before me. She was like an angel, here to save me.
I knew this thought was a bit exaggerated.
But in my heart, she was that wonderful.
Looking at her, my heart was filled with hope for the future.
I knew I had to work even harder, not to let her down.
Looking at her, I silently swore.
I must become stronger and stand by her side, protecting her.
I knew I was weak now.
But I believed I could achieve it.
Looking at her, my heart was filled with strength.
I knew I had to change for her.
I had to become more confident, more excellent, more charming.
I knew this would be difficult.
But I believed, for her, I could definitely do it.
Looking at her, my heart was filled with gratitude.
She was a ray of light in my life.
Looking at her, I silently prayed.
May she always be happy and joyful.
I looked at the girl before me. She was like a shining star, illuminating my path forward.
Looking at her, my heart was filled with affection.
I knew I had fallen in love with her.
I didn’t know how to express my feelings.
I was afraid of losing her.
Looking at her, I silently decided.
I would quietly guard her until I was strong enough.
I looked at the girl before me. She suddenly extended her hand.
“Let’s be friends,” she said, smiling.
I was excited and happy.
I extended my hand and clasped hers.
“Okay,” I said.
Looking at her, my heart was filled with happiness.
I knew my life had changed from this moment on.
I looked at the girl before me. She was beautiful and good.
Looking at her, I silently thanked heaven.
I knew I was lucky.
Looking at her, I silently swore.
I would dedicate my life to protecting this luck.
I looked at the girl before me. She was like a miracle.
Looking at her, my heart was filled with hope.
I knew I had to work hard to be worthy of her.
Looking at her, I silently admonished myself.
You have to try harder, Lin Fan.
I looked at the girl before me. She was like a dream.
Looking at her, I silently made a wish.
May this dream never be shattered.
I looked at the girl before me. She suddenly released my hand.
“From now on, we are friends,” she said, smiling.
I also smiled, a very happy smile.
“Mm,” I said to myself.
I looked at her, my heart filled with anticipation.
I knew that she and I would have many stories.
I looked at the girl before me. She suddenly turned around and left.
She was gone, but I still stood in the same place.
I watched her retreating back, my heart filled with reluctance.
I knew I would miss her.
I watched her retreating back, silently offering my blessings.
I hoped she would be happy forever.
I looked at the girl before me. She was like a gentle breeze, brushing against my heart.
I looked at her, my heart filled with emotion.
I knew I had to work hard, to catch up to her pace.
I watched her retreating back, silently making up my mind.
I would definitely become stronger.
I looked at the girl before me. She was like a beam of light, illuminating the path ahead of me.
I looked at her, my heart filled with strength.
I knew I was no longer alone.
I had friends now. I had to bravely move forward.
I watched her retreating back, silently warning myself.
“You must be brave, Lin Fan.”
I looked at the girl before me. She had already disappeared from my sight.
But I still stood in the same place, unable to leave for a long time.
I knew I had to start a new life.
I had to work hard, to live for myself.
I looked in the direction she had disappeared, silently saying thank you.
“Thank you, my friend.”
I turned around and walked towards my classroom.
I knew I had to study hard.
I would use my efforts to repay her kindness.
I looked at the world before me. It seemed to have become more beautiful.
I knew it was because I had hope in my heart.
I looked at the sun in the sky. It seemed warmer than before.
I knew it was because I had love in my heart.
I looked at the classmates around me. They also seemed to have become friendlier.
I knew it was because I had friends in my heart.
I looked at the world before me. It was filled with warmth and love.
I knew I had to bravely move forward.
I looked at the world before me. It was beautiful and exciting.
I knew I had to embrace it with all my effort.
I looked at the world before me. It was full of challenges and opportunities.
I knew I had to face it bravely.
I looked at the world before me. It was vast and free.
I knew I had to explore it with all my effort.
I looked at the world before me. It was real and cruel.
I knew I had to accept it bravely.
I looked at the world before me. It was full of infinite possibilities.
I knew I had to create it with all my effort.
I looked at the world before me. It was complicated and simple.
I knew I had to understand it with all my effort.
I looked at the world before me. It was magical and interesting.
I knew I had to discover it with all my effort.
I looked at the world before me. It was full of joy and tears.
I knew I had to feel it with all my effort.
I looked at the world before me. It was beautiful and moving.
I knew I had to appreciate it with all my effort.
I looked at the world before me. It was full of vitality.
I knew I had to live it with all my effort.
I looked at the world before me. It was brilliant.
I knew I had to become a part of it with all my effort.
I looked at the world before me. It was full of love and hope.
I knew I had to spread it with all my effort.
I looked at the world before me. It was beautiful.
I knew I had to cherish it with all my effort.
I looked at the world before me. It was precious.
I knew I had to protect it with all my effort.
I looked at the world before me. It was great.
I knew I had to learn from it with all my effort.
I looked at the world before me. It was full of mystery.
I knew I had to explore it with all my effort.
I looked at the world before me. It was vast.
I knew I had to fly with all my effort.
I looked at the world before me. It was free.
I knew I had to sing with all my effort.
I looked at the world before me. It was powerful.
I knew I had to conquer it with all my effort.
I looked at the world before me. It was peaceful.
I knew I had to feel it with all my effort.
I looked at the world before me. It was noisy.
I knew I had to listen to it with all my effort.
I looked at the world before me. It was complicated.
I knew I had to understand it with all my effort.
I looked at the world before me. It was simple.
I knew I had to discover it with all my effort.
I looked at the world before me. It was magical.
I knew I had to create it with all my effort.
I looked at the world before me. It was interesting.
I knew I had to enjoy it with all my effort.
I looked at the world before me. It was full of infinite possibilities.
I knew I had to realize them with all my effort.
I had experienced and witnessed the success of others and my own failures. I understood and knew the direction of my efforts.
But effort did not translate into strength.
I once read an analysis of Gemini. They said Geminis don’t lack social skills, but rather have poor social skills.
After reading it, I only felt a sense of resonance.
Because I believed I just wasn’t trying hard enough, not that I was inherently flawed.
As long as I tried, tried with all my might, I would eventually catch up to others.
Just like in class, I saw those outstanding students achieve good grades.
I knew the effort they put in behind the scenes. In fact, I even believed I put in more effort than they did.
I even secretly went to the playground to run at night. To increase my study time, I only ate one meal set for lunch and finished eating within half an hour.
The time I saved, I felt happy.
Because I earned the opportunity for myself, an opportunity I gained through my own efforts.
However, after years of effort, I began to feel that something was wrong.
Not only did I not catch up to others, but my efforts did not translate into strength.
I studied hard, but my exam scores were below average.
Every time I looked at my efforts and then at my unsightly results, I would fall into a long silence.
Where did my efforts go?
Was it a lack of talent?
Or was my method of effort flawed?
I once thought that studying hard would be rewarded.
But reality slapped me hard.
I studied diligently. To maintain my focus, I never actively spoke to my classmates and refused some classmates’ kindness.
I was stubborn like this, just wanting to surpass others in grades.
But, until now, I only realized that talent truly exists.
I thought I had tried, I thought I had studied diligently, I thought I could succeed.
I didn’t understand why this was happening to me.
I looked at the girl before me and listened to her story.
She was amazing, or rather, Geminis were amazing.
I lacked social talent, but Geminis had it.
I craved social interaction, but I lacked the talent for it.
I wasn’t missing limbs, I just lacked a talent, but I bore many consequences for lacking that talent.
I once tried hard to learn how to socialize.
I also tried to connect with people and actively helped them.
But others were unwilling to interact with me too much.
I watched those popular students. With just a glance or a smile, many would talk to them.
I was envious and a bit jealous.
I never thought I was a bad person, I just craved attention.
I invested a lot of energy, just to have common topics and common interests with others.
However, I spent a lot of time learning, summarizing, and watching those pieces of information.
But when I expressed what I wanted to say, an awkward situation often arose: others didn’t understand, they didn’t accept it.
Seeing my efforts, it seemed like a joke, yet I persisted.
Every day I paid attention, observing what others liked, what they disliked, and their every move.
But my social circle did not expand.
I knew this was actually the difference in talent.
I thought effort could compensate for a lack of talent, but I overestimated effort and underestimated talent.
Effort is very important, but talent is even more important.
I just lacked social talent. I could study hard, but socializing couldn’t be solved by effort alone.
If someone likes you, they will like you no matter what you do.
If someone doesn’t like you, they won’t like you no matter how hard you try.
This is the reality of things.
I looked at the girl before me. She had cascading hair and a small face that made me somewhat jealous, yet helpless.
Looking at her, I seemed to see my opposite.
She could easily do things I couldn’t.
I watched her chatting with her classmates. Her eyes had light, they had smiles.
And me? I could only sit alone, looking at books, at silent words.
I wanted to chat with everyone, but I didn’t know what to say.
I wanted to help others, but they didn’t give me the chance.
I am just an ordinary person.
Without talent, without connections, and without any.
Things to show off.
But I worked hard, I wanted to
change my destiny.
But fate was playing tricks on me.
I didn’t know why I had been working so hard for so long.
I felt a bit lost and unsure of what to do.
I looked at the girl in front of me, she had bright eyes that seemed to see through everything.
I looked at her, and felt a bit uncomfortable.
Why did she have so many things?
Did she work hard for them?
I didn’t understand, I just felt it was very unfair to me.
I had sacrificed so much, why didn’t I get any reward?
I was not reconciled, I did not want to fail like this, I did not want to give up just like that.
So, I was still working hard, still persevering.
I believed that as long as I worked hard, I would definitely succeed.
I knew this idea was naive, but it was the only thing I could rely on to keep going.
I looked at the girl in front of me, she was excellent and beautiful.
I looked at her, and suddenly felt that I was not good enough for her.
Not in appearance, but in strength.
I didn’t have her confidence, wasn’t as excellent as her, or as charming as her.
I am just a person with low self-esteem.
I didn’t want to admit it, but that was the reality.
I looked at the girl in front of me, she seemed like a shining star, and I was just an insignificant pawn.
I felt some envy and some jealousy.
I also wanted to be like her, but I couldn’t.
I knew this was the gap between us.
I also knew this gap was hard to bridge.
But I still didn’t want to give up.
I was still working hard, still persevering.
I believed that one day, I would be as excellent as her.
I didn’t know if this belief was right or wrong.
But I had no other choice.
I looked at the girl in front of me, she suddenly turned her head and looked at me.
Our eyes met, and I felt a bit flustered.
I didn’t dare to look into her eyes, I was afraid.
I was afraid that she would see the deep inferiority complex within me.
I lowered my head, not daring to look at her again.
But she suddenly smiled, a sweet and beautiful smile.
“What’s your name?” she suddenly asked.
I couldn’t believe it, she was actually talking to me.
I was a bit nervous, and my speech was stuttering.
“I… my name is Lin Fan,” I said.
“Lin Fan, you are special,” she said with a smile.
I was surprised, was I special? I didn’t think so.
I was just a civilian, with nothing special about me.
I didn’t understand why she said that.
“You work very hard,” she seemed to read my mind and said with a smile.
I blushed a little, she actually knew I worked hard.
“You don’t need to be inferior, everyone has their own shining points,” she said softly.
I was a little touched, she was so understanding.
I looked at her, and suddenly had an inexplicable impulse.
I wanted to be friends with her, I wanted to talk to her.
But I didn’t know what to say.
I was nervous and a little scared.
I was afraid that I would say something wrong and make her dislike me.
She seemed to read my mind and said with a smile, “You don’t need to be nervous, I’m not a fierce beast.”
I also smiled, and it was a happy smile.
I knew I had met a good person.
I looked at her, and suddenly had a feeling that she and I would definitely become good friends.
I didn’t know where this feeling came from.
But I firmly believed it.
I looked at the girl in front of me, she was excellent and beautiful.
I looked at her, and suddenly felt a warmth in my heart.
I knew I was no longer alone.
I had a friend, and I was very happy.
I looked at her, and silently thanked God.
Thank you for letting me meet her.
I didn’t know what the future would hold.
But I believed that as long as she was here, I would definitely be able to bravely move forward.
I looked at the girl in front of me, she seemed like an angel, sent to save me.
I knew this was an exaggeration.
But in my heart, she was that beautiful.
I looked at her, and my heart was filled with hope for the future.
I knew I had to work harder, and not let her down.
I looked at her, and silently vowed in my heart.
I must become stronger and stand by her side to protect her.
I knew I was weak now.
But I believed I could do it.
I looked at her, and my heart was filled with power.
I knew I had to change for her.
I had to become more confident, more excellent, and more charming.
I knew it was difficult.
But I believed that for her, I could definitely do it.
I looked at her, and my heart was filled with gratitude.
She was a light in my life.
I looked at her, and silently prayed.
I hope she can always be happy and joyful.
I looked at the girl in front of me, she seemed like a shining star, illuminating the path ahead.
I looked at her, and my heart was filled with love.
I knew I had fallen in love with her.
I didn’t know how to express my feelings.
I was afraid that I would lose her.
I looked at her, and silently decided in my heart.
I will silently protect her until I am strong enough.
I looked at the girl in front of me, she suddenly extended her hand.
“Let’s be friends,” she said with a smile.
I was excited and happy.
I reached out my hand and held hers.
“Okay,” I said.
I looked at her, and my heart was filled with happiness.
I knew my life had changed from this moment on.
I looked at the girl in front of me, she was beautiful and kind.
I looked at her, and silently thanked God.
I knew I was lucky.
I looked at her, and silently vowed in my heart.
I will use my whole life to protect this luck.
I looked at the girl in front of me, she seemed like a miracle.
I looked at her, and my heart was filled with hope.
I knew I had to work hard, and be worthy of her.
I looked at her, and silently warned myself.
You have to keep going, Lin Fan.
I looked at the girl in front of me, she seemed like a dream.
I looked at her, and silently made a wish.
I hope this dream will never be shattered.
I looked at the girl in front of me, she suddenly let go of my hand.
“From now on, we are friends,” she said with a smile.
I also smiled, and it was a happy smile.
“Mhm,” I said.
I looked at her, and my heart was filled with anticipation.
I knew she and I would have many stories.
I looked at the girl in front of me, she suddenly turned around and left.
She left, but I was still standing in place.
I looked at her retreating figure, and my heart was filled with reluctance.
I knew I would miss her.
I looked at her retreating figure, and silently blessed her.
I hope she can always be happy.
I looked at the girl in front of me, she seemed like a gentle breeze, brushing across my heart.
I looked at her, and my heart was filled with emotion.
I knew I had to work hard, and catch up to her pace.
I looked at her retreating figure, and silently made up my mind.
I will definitely become stronger.
I looked at the girl in front of me, she seemed like a light, illuminating the path ahead.
I looked at her, and my heart was filled with power.
I knew I was no longer alone.
I had a friend, and I had to bravely move forward.
I looked at her retreating figure, and silently warned myself.
You have to be brave, Lin Fan.
I looked at the girl in front of me, she had already disappeared from my sight.
But I was still standing in place, unable to leave for a long time.
I knew it was time for me to start a new life.
I had to work hard, and live for myself.
I looked in the direction she disappeared, and silently said thank you.
Thank you, my friend.
I turned around and walked towards my classroom.
I knew I had to study hard.
I had to use my efforts to repay her kindness.
I looked at the world in front of me, it seemed to have become more beautiful.
I knew it was because I had hope in my heart.
I looked at the sun in the sky, it seemed warmer than before.
I knew it was because I had love in my heart.
I looked at the classmates around me, they also seemed friendlier.
I knew it was because I had friends in my heart.
I looked at the world in front of me, it was full of warmth and love.
I knew I had to bravely move forward.
I looked at the world in front of me, it was beautiful and exciting.
I knew I had to bravely embrace it.
I looked at the world in front of me, it was full of challenges and opportunities.
I knew I had to bravely face it.
I looked at the world in front of me, it was vast and free.
I knew I had to explore it diligently.
I looked at the world in front of me, it was real and cruel.
I knew I had to bravely accept it.
I looked at the world in front of me, it was full of infinite possibilities.
I knew I had to strive to create them.
I looked at the world in front of me, it was complicated and simple.
I knew I had to understand it diligently.
I looked at the world in front of me, it was magical and interesting.
I knew I had to discover it diligently.
I looked at the world in front of me, it was full of joy and tears.
I knew I had to feel it diligently.
I looked at the world in front of me, it was beautiful and moving.
I knew I had to appreciate it diligently.
I looked at the world in front of me, it was full of vitality.
I knew I had to live it diligently.
I looked at the world in front of me, it was wonderful.
I knew I had to strive to become a part of it.
I looked at the world in front of me, it was full of love and hope.
I knew I had to spread it diligently.
I looked at the world in front of me, it was beautiful.
I knew I had to cherish it diligently.
I looked at the world in front of me, it was precious.
I knew I had to protect it diligently.
I looked at the world in front of me, it was great.
I knew I had to learn from it diligently.
I looked at the world in front of me, it was full of mystery.
I knew I had to explore it diligently.
I looked at the world in front of me, it was vast.
I knew I had to fly diligently.
I looked at the world in front of me, it was free.
I knew I had to sing diligently.
I looked at the world in front of me, it was powerful.
I knew I had to conquer it diligently.
I looked at the world in front of me, it was calm.
I knew I had to feel it diligently.
I looked at the world in front of me, it was noisy.
I knew I had to listen diligently.
I looked at the world in front of me, it was complicated.
I knew I had to understand it diligently.
I looked at the world in front of me, it was simple.
I knew I had to discover it diligently.
I looked at the world in front of me, it was magical.
I knew I had to create it diligently.
I looked at the world in front of me, it was interesting.
I knew I had to enjoy it diligently.
I looked at the world in front of me, it was full of infinite possibilities.
I knew I had to realize them diligently.
