Chapter 40.6: The Helplessness of the Necrophiliac Killer
The Helplessness of the Necrophiliac Killer:
“Ton, ton, ton, ton ton~ ton ton, ton, ton, ton~ ton, ton, ton, ton ton~”
In the morning, after arriving at the bathroom, I hummed a tune as I dipped my toes in to test the water temperature. The bathwater prepared by Shirley would be fine; it was just a habitual action.
Then, I stepped into the bath, immersing myself in the warm water scattered with rose petals, letting my hair soak.
I preferred bathing in the morning over the evening. This was not just due to the scientific reason that morning baths help with blood circulation; it was also to wash away the grime accumulated overnight. Furthermore, the fragrant bath helped to improve my mood.
“Ton, ton, ton, ton ton~ ton ton, ton, ton, ton~ ton, ton, ton, ton ton~”
Hehehe~
That felt quite nice~
Shirley, who had accompanied me to the bathroom, saw me humming again and asked with a smile, “It seems you are in a very good mood today, Young Miss.”
“Hehehe, isn’t that obvious? It’s my birthday today, after all!”
No one would wear a gloomy face on their birthday, right? So, it was reasonable for me to be so happy…
“Are you that excited about Young Master Juncheng’s gift?”
“…”
Hmm… While Shirley’s mind-reading ability was usually very convenient, it felt a bit embarrassing at this moment.
Is she even teasing her own Young Miss? What a mischievous Head Maid?
“Hehehe, no way, Shirley, don’t talk nonsense. I’m not particularly expecting anything…”
I flipped over, placed my hands on the edge of the bathtub, kicked my legs, and said with a chuckle, looking at Shirley.
“Oh? Did I misunderstand? The song you’re humming expresses your anticipation for a gift, doesn’t it? ‘Ton in the box,’ hehehe…”
Shirley covered her mouth and chuckled elegantly, but no matter how I looked at it, it was a teasing smile.
Ugh, I accidentally hummed a song that matched my mood. It was only natural for Shirley, who could read minds, to discover that… It was my mistake.
Had I gotten a little too carried away with happiness?
Another me in my heart was also leaping with joy, clamoring in my head since morning to pick out the most beautiful evening gown. She seemed even more excited than I was. Hmph, is she a child?
I’m already past the age where I’d be happy just celebrating my birthday.
However, since I heard that Juncheng would prepare a birthday gift for me… it should be okay to anticipate it a little, right…
No matter what he gives me, the other me would probably be too excited to sleep all night. Last night, just anticipating the gift kept me up the whole night, making it impossible for me to rest.
Of course, I wouldn’t be like that other me, who is as simple as a blank piece of paper and accepts any gift. The gifts that can satisfy me are few and far between.
Juncheng should also know that I lack nothing. Everything he can give me, I already have, except for one thing… Of course, Juncheng wouldn’t hand over his corpse to me, but if he could give me his ‘heart,’ I would be very satisfied… Hehehe…
No, what am I thinking?
Taking advantage of my birthday to ask for what I want, wouldn’t that make me like the other me, becoming an unreasonable child?
Honestly, I’ve gotten a bit flustered too, hehehe… Immature.
“However, Young Miss, you aren’t perhaps hoping that Young Master Juncheng would put his heart in a gift box as a birthday present for you, are you? No, a material heart is still lacking a bit. You want Young Master Juncheng’s ‘heart,’ right?”
“…Of course not~ Hehehe~”
“Oh, you hesitated?”
“…No.”
“You definitely did.”
“I didn’t!”
“Really not? Your earlobes are turning red, Young Miss?”
“Ugh…! Annoying… I’m not talking to you anymore, Shirley!”
This maid is really malicious!
Honestly… Is it because of this… that I can never win against Shirley no matter how much time passes…
I turned my head away, but Shirley conspicuously moved into my field of vision. So, I simply changed from a prone position to lying on my back, to avoid looking at Shirley.
Shirley came to the edge of the bathtub, wrapped her arms around my shoulders, kissed my earlobe, and whispered in my ear, “Even if it’s not a whole heart, don’t you hope for a gift full of ‘heart’ from Young Master Juncheng?”
This, I really couldn’t deny… If I denied this thought, it would be equivalent to denying myself. In the end, I could only admit it…
I turned over again, submerged half my head in the bathtub, making bubbling sounds, then stuck my head out and grudgingly admitted to Shirley, “Alright… you win again, Shirley. I did have that thought for a moment, but I immediately dismissed that naive idea!”
Seeing that I had personally admitted it, Shirley didn’t continue to tease me about it. She just chuckled softly, patted my shoulder, and signaled that she would start washing my body.
Even if I sulk with Shirley, I will eventually be softened by her smiling face… Speaking of which, I’ve never seen Shirley with any expression other than a smile… She’s truly a flawless Head Maid.
After a moment of reflection, I got out of the bathtub, shook my hair, and sat on a prepared low stool.
Shirley began washing my body from the front. Since she had been meticulously washing my body since I was young, I didn’t feel shy no matter where Shirley touched. Of course, some places still felt a little strange when touched… Like now, when Shirley washes my chest, my body gets a little warmer. It’s mainly because Shirley’s technique is a bit strange… Is there a need to wash my chest so thoroughly? Really…
“Oh dear, as expected, your chest has grown a little bigger again, Young Miss?”
After washing my chest, Shirley massaged it a few times and said with some surprise.
“Hm? Shirley, you can even tell that?”
“Of course. I record the development of your body every day with fluctuations down to the second decimal place, hehehe.”
Ugh, is there a need to go that far… Shirley sometimes has peculiar obsessions in peculiar places. I only knew that my height and weight were being recorded, but I didn’t expect my bust size to be recorded too… In that case, my bust-waist-hip measurements are probably all known by Shirley already?
“Hehehe~ Then how is my bust size now? Is it something to be proud of yet?”
“Yes, the rate of increase in your bust size has significantly improved recently, rising a level. I will change your bra to a new size later. Congratulations, Young Miss, on your figure becoming even more perfect.”
“Hehehe, that’s only natural.”
“Oh dear, it’s truly remarkable. Young Miss, until you were fourteen, your chest was only the size of a fried egg, and I was worried for you. I didn’t expect it to grow so much in the past three years. Seeing the ever-increasing data, I was both surprised and delighted? Hehehe~”
Shirley’s laughter was louder than usual, and her smile was wider, as if she genuinely couldn’t hide her joy. What’s there to be so happy about? It’s like her own chest grew… No, her chest is already quite large. Speaking of which, Shirley’s chest is quite spectacular. That must be what men like the most, ‘**.’ Have I finally caught up to her now? Juncheng, being a man, probably likes them bigger too, right?
(Of course, Juncheng will definitely like it. Last time I held his arm, he seemed very happy. When we watched a movie together, he kept staring at my chest, and my heart involuntarily sped up~ Haha, I really want to hold Juncheng in my arms, and use this grown chest to cover his cheek, let him hear my heartbeat, then gently stroke his hair and say, ‘Good boy, good boy’… It would be so happy… Ah, next time we watch a movie, let’s book the couple’s seats. That way, we won’t have to worry about others watching and can do some… things. You should try your best, okay? Go ask Juncheng out again soon? I really want to date Juncheng again… I wonder what birthday gift Juncheng will prepare? I’m so excited~ Aren’t you excited? You’re probably so happy you could dance, right? Shirley should prepare the decisive innerwear, right? If possible, the first time I want to be in…)
Don’t suddenly appear! Other me!
I forcefully patted my temples with my palms, then pinched my philtrum hard, finally making the other me reluctantly return to the depths of my mind. Ugh, honestly, I let her out again by accident… And she’s so chatty, it’s truly annoying. She doesn’t say much in front of Juncheng, but she chatters endlessly in my head. What a chatterbox…
(That’s to avoid making Juncheng feel I’m noisy~ I have to leave a good impression on him. Anyway, we’ll have a lifetime to talk intimately later, won’t we? Haha… You also shouldn’t always make lewd jokes in front of Juncheng. Aren’t there many other topics to chat about? Speaking of which, Juncheng seems unwilling to talk much in front of me, but he can talk naturally in front of you… Why is that?)
That’s enough…! “Get back in there!”
“Oh? Young Miss?”
“Ugh… Nothing. Sorry, Shirley, I startled you.”
I covered one eye, my smiling expression completely gone, and apologized to Shirley with a frown. But a stuffy anger still lingered in my chest, unable to dissipate for a long time. It’s so infuriating…! As soon as she appears, I can’t control my emotions and always end up getting angry at ‘myself.’
“No, it’s alright, Young Miss… Did Miss Ruansui appear?”
“Ruansui?”
What kind of nickname is that?
“That’s the nickname Young Master Juncheng gave to the other Young Miss to distinguish between the two of you.”
“A nickname Juncheng gave… Ruansui… It’s quite fitting, hehehe.”
Isn’t she exactly ‘Ruansui’! My second personality, which was a bit confused before, has become increasingly ‘independent’ recently… I mean ‘self-willed.’ She can even control my body to do things I don’t know when I’m asleep. Before the last date, she even changed my underwear without permission. Rather than wear such embarrassing underwear, it would be better to just take it off! In the end, I did take it off. Unlike me, she feels ashamed when she’s ‘not wearing’ anything, hehehe… Gradually, without my permission, she can emerge on the surface mental level. She has, to some extent, gained the body’s approval. If this continues, will she be able to replace my dominant position and become the true ‘Ji Lianbing’…
(No, you are me, and I am you. I was born from the feelings of liking Juncheng, and I am a part of you. How could I replace you? Unless you reject Juncheng, hate Juncheng, or even resent Juncheng… But that’s impossible, isn’t it? You are obsessed with his corpse, and I am obsessed with him as a person. These two things do not conflict, hehe.)
“…”
Hehehe…
I tilted my head back, wiped the water from my cheek, closed my eyes, put my hand on my forehead, and sighed…
Is this what helplessness feels like…
I really can’t do anything about myself…
