Chapter 26.4 [An Keling] Part Two
When I was young, my Older sisters would give me anything I wanted.
Although my Older sisters and I had the same birthday, we still had to distinguish our positions as sisters. I’ve never truly understood how we were ranked, but in the end, I became the youngest.
In reality, my parents’ ranking was quite brilliant after all.
Zi’ai Older sister was indeed suited to be the eldest, while I was more suited to be the youngest. Xinran Older sister, who joined us mid-way, naturally became the second daughter.
I had two Older sisters: the gentle Zi’ai Older sister and the serene Xinran Older sister. Both of them had relatively quiet personalities, so I felt it was necessary for me to be a lively younger sister to maintain balance in the family.
I didn’t have to bear any responsibilities, and everything was prioritized for me. I was like a privileged member of the family, showered with everyone’s affection.
Xinran Older sister and Zi’ai Older sister took great care of me, which is why I loved my Older sisters the most.
That’s what I used to think.
However, after Zi’ai Older sister disappeared, everything changed.
My parents, who usually didn’t seem very concerned about Zi’ai Older sister, suddenly became very anxious. My Stepmother even cried and tried very hard to find Zi’ai Older sister. I realized then that Zi’ai Older sister was actually the one who received the most attention.
I don’t think this was jealousy, because when I heard about Zi’ai Older sister’s disappearance, I also felt an urgent sense of loss for something important.
I just hadn’t realized it before, but Zi’ai Older sister was actually the pillar of our family. That’s why she was the eldest.
So, our entire family mobilized to search for Zi’ai Older sister, and I also tried my best to find her in my own way.
However, after waiting for a long time without any clues or news, my mood grew heavier and heavier, and I even started to feel that this waiting and searching was meaningless.
Xinran Older sister admired Zi’ai Older sister even more than I did. Their personalities were also quite similar, so they communicated more than I did with Zi’ai Older sister. For a while, I even felt alienated, but in reality, neither of my Older sisters intended to exclude me. As long as I initiated contact, they would open up to me. Zi’ai Older sister, as the balance point between us, allowed the three sisters to get along harmoniously.
But after Zi’ai Older sister disappeared, my communication with Xinran Older sister became less frequent. Of course, this was also related to my returning alone.
My family didn’t understand why I came back, and they might have even thought I was indifferent to Zi’ai Older sister. That feeling of alienation reappeared. I was excluded.
Although Xinran Older sister often called me, she mostly lectured me. I didn’t want to hear these things, but I couldn’t explain why.
As a result, I became alone.
When I’m alone, time always feels like it passes very quickly.
It wasn’t an illusion; it was more like a feeling of having lived through lifetimes.
On the balcony of my apartment, leaning against the railing and looking at the starless sky, I felt time slipping away faster and faster, everything drifting away from me. That must be what loneliness feels like.
But everything took a turn. That day, I finally found an important clue.
The moment I saw him, I knew he was the clue I had been waiting for all this time. An Juncheng. He must be someone connected to Zi’ai Older sister.
After some questioning (interrogation), I learned about his relationship with Zi’ai Older sister. He was actually Zi’ai Older sister’s boyfriend.
Indeed, they were quite a match. Their personalities, habits, and preferences were very similar. A match made in heaven would be this kind of situation.
It felt like a familiar sense of having known him before, and an innate sense of closeness, as if Zi’ai Older sister were by my side. It felt like I had regained my normal life.
Before long, I completely trusted him. I told him everything I knew, things I hadn’t even told Xinran Older sister. Why was that?
Later, he saved me when I was in danger. If it weren’t for him, I might…
Rescued by him and invited by him, we lived under the same roof, my heart pounding in the warmth of the blankets.
No! No, no, no! This is definitely not a feeling of love; it’s just gratitude! You see, isn’t there that thing called the “bridge effect”? Anyone would develop feelings for the person who saved them, right? It’s laughable self-deception. Haven’t I already become obsessed with Juncheng?
But he is also Zi’ai Older sister’s boyfriend.
Zi’ai Older sister wouldn’t give even her boyfriend to me, would she?
An Juncheng is the person Zi’ai Older sister misses in her dreams.
Therefore, I should just treat him as a brother. I originally thought so, but I could never bring myself to call him “brother.” I always felt…
When I was alone in my room, I secretly called out his name once.
“Brother.”
Every time I said it, a wave of warmth flowed into my heart, making me feel incredibly warm.
Finally, I no longer felt alone. As long as Juncheng was by my side, everything would go smoothly. I had this baseless thought.
I also thought that if this daily life continued, time would allow the sadness of losing Zi’ai Older sister to fade, and finally, Juncheng would come to our home and replace Zi’ai Older sister. And at that time, I could express my feelings.
Even though this thought was wrong and shouldn’t have happened, I should have firmly believed that Zi’ai Older sister would return. But I… I actually thought that if Zi’ai Older sister never came back, then… wouldn’t he turn his attention to me?
I must be bewitched, gone mad.
I abandoned my identity as a younger sister and yearned for a chance to become his lover.
However, Xinran Older sister’s return disrupted everything.
Her declaration of love in person, and his acknowledgment.
“SF Light Novel”
At that moment, Juncheng’s expression was serious, not one of helplessness, nor was he joking.
I shouted “impossible” in my heart. Xinran Older sister and Juncheng met for the first time, so how could they already be in that kind of relationship?
There must be a hidden reason. Juncheng must have admitted it for a special reason. It must be like this!
Their interaction was indeed very natural, as if they had known each other for a long time.
I couldn’t help but ask Xinran Older sister, only to receive a cold reply.
“I know you like him, Keling, but I’m sorry, you and him are impossible.”
“Why!”
This sentence pierced my chest like an arrow. My initial belief began to crumble, and only uglier jealousy was exposed.
I started to not want to talk to Xinran Older sister, nor did I want to see them together. My heart ached with bitterness, thinking that…
From childhood to adulthood, anything I wanted was given to me.
But only Juncheng would not be given to me. As expected, I have to give up…
Speaking of which, the three sisters falling for the same person, what a twist of fate.
No, I don’t want to give up! I’m not reconciled!
I was the first one to like him, so why is he not by my side in the end, but belongs to someone else!
Why!
“It’s always like this!”
My memory blurred, and déjà vu surged again and again, all of it memories of being with him.
But the time from when I first met him until now made so many things impossible. And why do these memories start from childhood? Did we meet before?
Why have I always called him “Brother”?
“Brother…”
My brain felt like it was thrown into a furnace, turning into mush, as if it was about to melt.
I’m dreaming.
Right, at this time, I should go to Brother’s room.
Hehe, while Brother is out, I’ll enjoy his scent in his bed.
That’s right, I usually do this.
I walked out of my room in a daze and came to his room. I gently opened the door.
The skill of opening a door without making a sound was already ingrained in my bones, more proficient than Xinran Older sister.
Ah, Brother is here.
“Hmm? Keling?”
@SF Light Novel
Hehe, that’s great~ I hit the jackpot?
Hmm~ Although my luck has never been bad, when it comes to Brother, I always lag behind others and end up losing him unconsciously.
I don’t want to!
I don’t want this!
Brother drifting further and further away from me, that’s absolutely unacceptable!
“Brother…”
“What’s wrong? Uh, wait, you called me Brother!”
“You are my brother.”
I grabbed his wrist with both hands and pulled him up from his seat.
“Yes, yes, I am your brother! Ah~ That’s great, you’re finally willing to call me Brother? Keling, why are you pulling me?”
“Let’s sleep together~”
“Eh?!”
“Let’s sleep together.”
“Uh, it’s only eight o’clock now. No, Keling, you seem a little… off.”
Off?
Isn’t it normal for sisters to sleep together?
Hehe, but I won’t just lie down and sleep obediently anymore. I need to do some exercises before sleeping to sleep better.
“Keling?!”
I pushed Brother onto the bed and started taking off his clothes.
This step had been rehearsed countless times in my mind. I knew his reflexive actions and how he would react. Even if he resisted, he wouldn’t be able to escape my grasp.
I took off his long socks and used them as ropes to tie his hands.
Be good, Brother.
Once I’ve finished undressing you, I’ll take off my own clothes, and then we can do something comfortable~
Hehe, finally, I can have Brother.
This time, I’m the first, ahead of everyone else.
I should have done this earlier. I didn’t need to consider so many things; I’m a person of action after all.
“Wait! Keling?! What are you doing! Calm down! I’m not your Brother!”
This sentence struck me like lightning from a clear sky, deafeningly echoing in my ears.
The burning sensation in my brain receded, as if a bucket of cold water had been poured over my head, bringing me back to my senses.
—
What was I doing?
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You are here.
“Uh, even if you ask me why I’m here, this is my room?”
“This is your room?”
I looked around dazedly. This was indeed An Juncheng’s room.
Huh? When did I come to this room?
“Uh, well, can you get up for a moment? Please, get up first.”
Get up?
It was then that I noticed I was sitting on top of him, my clothes in disarray.
He awkwardly averted his gaze, a bitter smile on his lips.
“!!!!”
I let out a silent scream, unable to even utter a sound. I wanted to quickly pull myself up and get off the bed, but my legs wouldn’t support me.
“Wait, Keling, don’t move randomly! Don’t get agitated!!!”
Bleeding.
It hurts.
Oh no, I’m going to cry.
Crying in front of him is so embarrassing.
I need to wipe my tears and leave quickly; I don’t want to stay here anymore. It feels unbearable.
“Wait! Keling!”
Why! Every time! Every time it’s like this! Why! It’s always like this!
I’ve already decided to give up.
I gritted my teeth, my nose stung, and the pain below made me feel like I was losing consciousness.
But I still shouted.
“What are you doing!”
He froze on the spot.
Clutching my clothes, I forced myself to run out of the room and back to my own.
After locking the door, I collapsed on the bed, hugging myself.
The sharp pain from below was real.
Although it was an accident, it had indeed happened.
I felt no sadness at all, only pure joy.
“Hehe—”
Crying and laughing, I’m probably beyond saving.
Hmph, someone like that doesn’t deserve to be my…
Brother!
