Chapter 41: The Apocalypse of the Parallel World of Reality and Illusion (4)
“I say, Zi’ai, is there a need to chase out in such a hurry?”
Generally speaking, with Juncheng’s personality, he would at least say hello before going anywhere alone. But now, he hadn’t told us anything. This meant he was going to do something he ‘couldn’t tell us’!
Several possibilities had already appeared in my mind. Right now, we were like the butterflies that had transmigrated to the past. A casual flap of our wings could cause drastic changes in the future. If we didn’t think carefully before acting, we might lead to irreversible consequences!
“I’m going to find him.”
Is the focus still on eating! He had seemed so unfathomable before, but now he just looked like a pathetic woman exuding a flimsy aura and only thinking about mating.
Yet, we hadn’t even decided if we wanted to change anything. This was a crucial matter concerning the future direction! Why could this person still be so relaxed?
“You’re too tense, Zi’ai. Juncheng isn’t the type of person to overthink things. You should know this very well.”
“Besides, even if Juncheng really wants to do something, will you stop him?”
“The choice is already in his hands. Whatever choice he makes from now on, we must support him, even if his choice is the worst one for us. Don’t tell me you’re not prepared for this, Zi’ai An,” Zi Hua said to me, her expression turning from serious to smiling as she placed her hand on my chest.
“And… that’s precisely why you didn’t stop me from saying that, was it?”
Don’t take the opportunity to rub my chest, you pervert.
After swatting away Zi Hua’s intrusive hand in annoyance, I calmed down. It was true, as she said, I hadn’t stopped Zi Hua from telling Juncheng about that matter.
If Juncheng knew, he might truly choose to make it as if nothing had happened.
That would be the best choice for him, but in a corner of my heart, I hoped he wouldn’t choose that path.
It was a contradictory feeling.
From the bottom of my heart, I wished Juncheng could achieve his desires, but I also wanted to continue being with Juncheng.
Having this body was a rare opportunity. To be honest, if reason hadn’t reined in my instincts, constantly reminding myself that there were more important things to do and that I couldn’t waste a single second on anything else, I might have agreed to Zi Hua’s wicked ideas and happily rolled around in bed with Juncheng.
“So you’re also full of dirty thoughts! Zi’ai, you fake prude! Your inner thoughts have been completely exposed on your chest!”
“You can read minds by touching my chest? Do you think I’ll react with ‘How could this be!’? If it’s a psychological battle, I…”
“If it were my junior sister Bai, she would definitely fall for it. But with you, Zi’ai, you’re still a bit short, aren’t you?”
“I’m done arguing with you. I still need to find Juncheng. Regardless of whether I support his decision or not, if I get caught by the organization before that…”
“No way~ I’ll give you this chance to be alone this time.”
“Oh, has the stalker changed her ways? If you went, you’d find Juncheng in an instant, right?”
This doesn’t seem like ‘Lan Hua’s’ usual style. Has the future Lan Hua finally quit her perverted stalking habit?”
“Hehe, guess why I don’t want to go?”
“I have no interest in knowing. I’ll leave first. If we don’t come back, you’ll just have to sort out dinner by yourself.”
“Aww~ No~! Eating hot pot alone is so lonely~”
You’re really going to eat hot pot!
“But, since you’re going to find Juncheng, make sure to persuade him to sleep with you tonight! I won’t be too greedy, just two rounds.”
“Go play by yourself!”
After glaring at Zi Hua, I got into the elevator. Before the doors closed, I saw Zi Hua walk into the room… Juncheng’s room, of course.
Well, as expected, old habits die hard.
Before leaving the hotel, I asked the front desk if they had seen Juncheng. I found out that he had left about half an hour ago.
Half an hour… Juncheng has no money. He shouldn’t be able to take a bus or a subway.
So, the farthest place he could reach on foot from here is…
Wait, he wouldn’t have gone to Black Street, would he?
The access to Black Street should be tied to the body, meaning the current Juncheng shouldn’t have permission to enter Black Street. What if he did?
Damn!
What am I still doing here so slowly! I need to act!
The more I thought about it, the more anxious I became. By the time I reached the automatic doors of the hotel, I was practically running.
However, I had barely taken two steps out the door when I bumped into someone. The person said,
“You, Zi’ai, are you going out too?” SF Light Novel.
I fell badly.
Five minutes later, in a nearby park, Juncheng was applying medicine to the wound on my knee while saying.
“How is it? Does it still hurt?”
…..
My face turned red, and I couldn’t say a word, head bowed. No, I should say… I had nothing to say!
Juncheng saw my reaction, scratched his head, and apologized.
“Alright, it’s my fault for going out without informing you first. But I was just going out for some fresh air. You must understand that we are in the past, and even a small incident can cause great changes. I’ve heard of the butterfly effect.”
That’s right, Juncheng isn’t an impulsive person. He’s as rational as I am. Of course, he would think of things I could think of…
Which means I was worried for nothing!
Moreover, I even fell in front of Juncheng…
It’s too embarrassing! I want to find a hole to crawl into. If Zi Hua knew about this, she would definitely laugh at me mercilessly.
“Really, you finally got a new body, you should take better care of it. Anyway, you’re probably thinking that this body will disappear in a month, so you’re not paying attention to it at all.”
It felt like our positions had completely reversed. Why was Juncheng lecturing me instead?
“Okay, that’s bandaged. Fortunately, it’s just a scraped knee, so it shouldn’t leave a scar. Hehe, if such beautiful legs were to be blemished, my heart would ache to death.”
…Subtly flirting, the most fatal.
No, I’m not saying such frivolous things unconsciously! Because it’s you, Zi’ai, that I can say this so naturally.
That’s even more fatal!
My girlish heart… No, no, no! Then I’ll become like Zi Hua! I’m not her kind! I want to prove myself!
“Ahem, anyway, it’s good that Juncheng didn’t run off. I thought you were planning to go find your past self.”
“Ah, actually, I was just about to go find my past self. But I suddenly realized I had no money when I went out, so I just wandered around outside.”
He actually had that thought!
This means Juncheng really planned to…
Seeing me stand up excitedly, Juncheng quickly came to support me and said nervously.
“It’s not what you think. I just wanted to see my past self. I didn’t have any special plans. In the end, I haven’t decided yet what to do… Alright, I’ll take you back to your room first.”
“Wait, I don’t want to go back yet.”
If I go back, Zi Hua will see me like this… I don’t want to see her smug, mocking expression!
“…Don’t want to go back… Are you hinting at something?”
“Huh?”
Hinting?
Suddenly realizing the hidden meaning in my previous words, my face turned red again. I quickly retracted and denied it.
“No, no, no! I didn’t mean that. No, although I did have that thought, I wasn’t… Ah, what am I even saying…”
I want to die.
“…Hahaha, it’s quite rare to see you so nervous, Zi’ai. When I first met you, you weren’t this nervous even when we saw each other naked in the bathroom.”
“Actually, I was very embarrassed then too, but I just managed to hold it in…”
Why did I unnecessarily explain myself to him? Didn’t this make the atmosphere awkward again?
“You two are really… too cute. Haaahhh…”
Juncheng seemed to shake his head helplessly, then raised his head, covering his forehead with his hand, and groaned.
“That’s why I can’t decide whether to let everything go back to how it was.”
“Since we have a chance to choose again, we can all leave some room for each other. I know that accepting you was a last resort, but it’s actually unfair to you. I’m also wondering if it would have been better if you hadn’t met me…”
No such thing!
I really wanted to say it, to tell Juncheng that we don’t regret it, that he is our only choice…
But I can’t add to his burden anymore…
Just like Juncheng, I was also thinking that perhaps Juncheng might have lived a more relaxed and carefree life if he hadn’t met us.
I felt like crying. Hiding the sadness in my heart, no matter the outcome, this would be a brand new beginning.
Juncheng was silent for a moment before continuing.
“…In the end, I’m just making excuses for myself.”
“Zi’ai, do you know? I’m the type of person who always has ‘buyer’s remorse.’ Every time I encounter danger, I’ll think, ‘If only…’
…and regret why I didn’t notice it sooner, why I didn’t prevent everything before it became irreversible.
“Because I’m just a mortal, not a savior. Things I can’t do, I can only achieve by preparing in advance and fighting desperately for that sliver of possibility.”
“…I don’t regret my choices.”
“Losing a finger and being covered in wounds to save Lianbing, becoming a zombie, dying and losing my body for Xuan’er, leaving Ruanruan’s side with a broken heart… I don’t regret it.
“And accepting you all, I don’t think it was a wrong choice. On the contrary, because of you, I’ve been very happy.
“I’ve started to believe that this is my daily life, and I love the time I spend with you.”
Juncheng – An Juncheng extended his hand to me as if inviting me, a warm smile on his face.
“So, even though I feel like a scumbag saying this, I do want to take all of you beautiful girls into my harem and enjoy them myself. In the end, being rejected for such a scumbag-like thought is only natural… But if possible, even so, if you still like me…”
He, who had no desires, was now telling me about his desires.
Behind Juncheng, at the park entrance, Zi Hua was standing there, tears streaming down her face.
She had followed us after all.
She didn’t want to come because she was afraid of hearing the answer from Juncheng.
Now, Juncheng had given us the happiest answer.
Because this proved our efforts were not in vain; we had successfully changed his mind. We held the greatest significance in his heart.
So great that he was willing to give up his initial wish of reclaiming his ordinary life.
“Can I possess all of you?”
“Of course.”
Right now, all I want is to love you.
