Chapter 47: Entanglement and Return of Calamity Without Day (4)
“Are we going to see myself?”
“Yes, if I want to remember my lost memories, isn’t it the fastest way to directly see what happened in the past? When I see my past self, maybe I’ll have some kind of déjà vu.”
It makes sense. Juncheng five years ago, in other words, a primary school student.
I really want to meet Juncheng, the primary school student.
“Then, where should I meet Juncheng?”
“I don’t know. Anyway, let’s check near my home. But now, she should be in class at school.”
“Juncheng, don’t you know where your past self is? Could it be that you’ve already lost your memory during this period?”
“No, even if I haven’t lost my memory, I can’t remember things from five years ago.”
“Ah, is that so…”
So, I won’t remember things from five years ago…
But everything since I gained consciousness is vividly clear, not a single fragment overlooked. Even if events happened at the same time, I can distinguish them clearly without confusion.
So not everyone is like this?
“Of course, forgetting is a high-level function of the brain. Ordinary people won’t even remember what they ate for lunch three days ago. Trivial matters naturally won’t leave any impression.”
“I think many people would rather not have this high-level function.”
“Heh, that’s right. I used to think so too. But during those days when I became a zombie and couldn’t sleep, I truly realized that sleep and forgetting are human self-protection mechanisms.”
Zombies can’t sleep, so Juncheng had to take medicine to lose consciousness back then.
“Precisely because humans need to sleep and forget, they won’t go crazy easily.”
“Yes…”
So, am I, who doesn’t forget, still not a complete person…
Although I finally have my own body now, I haven’t been able to change my positioning yet.
“Before the Yata no Kagami hit my head, my life was without any ripples, and every day was dull… Hmm, I thought so, but now that I’m suddenly told that I’ve forgotten a period of memory, I must investigate.”
“Zi’ai?”
(SF Light Novel)
“Ah, I’m fine.”
“You’re strange today, and you keep spacing out. Is something bothering you?”
“No, nothing. Perhaps I haven’t gotten used to the feeling of having a body yet.”
“Oh, speaking of which, is there anything unusual with your body?”
“Yes, this body is much better than I imagined.”
Because Zi Hua exchanged dreams and reality, I also have a body.
This body looks no different from the Zi’ai I set. Originally, Zi’ai was set according to “feminine Jun Ge,” so she has a high degree of similarity to Juncheng. In the eyes of others, we two are undoubtedly a pair of siblings.
However, I don’t know if it’s because of the maid Yao Chun’s blood, but my hair is now a little reddish-brown.
Also, my body… is much more flexible than I imagined.
I used to think that the human body must be very weak and difficult to control freely, but it seems to be much better than I thought.
Perhaps this is also because of that red-haired maid. If it were just Juncheng’s body, it surely wouldn’t… Ah, I’m not saying Juncheng’s body is weak? In fact, compared to ordinary people, Juncheng’s body is already quite healthy, especially in endurance and stamina, which are even higher than ordinary people.
But this is still the level of mortals, and it’s definitely not comparable to beings like demons or gods.
“Speaking of which, when you were Kuuga, you were always inside my body, right? Then you must have seen everything I experienced. Don’t you remember what happened in the past?”
“I was in a dormant state at that time. Being able to talk to you is only a recent thing. I used to be too weak, barely able to maintain my existence.”
“Ah, is that so?”
“Yes. Because you formed a Master-slave contract with Teacher Lily and shared most of her Spiritual Power, this Spiritual Power nourished me, allowing me to form consciousness and talk to you, Juncheng.”
“But you know many things I don’t know… like the SF Light Novels.”
“That can never be forgotten.”
I said decisively.
That can never be forgotten.
I have immense hatred for that person.
Hate, hate, hate, hate, hate, hate, hate, hate, hate, hate, hate, I wish, I wish, I could drag him into the abyss of hell, and let him suffer eternally.
The resentment of being stillborn, the regret of dying before being born, and the anger towards the person who stole my meaning of existence and strangled me in the womb.
I know he is the Culprit, and Juncheng is just an innocent soul caught in it.
I’m glad I didn’t misjudge the object of my resentment.
But now, there’s not much desire for revenge left in my heart. Because of Juncheng, I’ve found my existence.
There is only one unresolved question circling in my mind that I cannot let go of without asking it clearly.
I really don’t understand why he could do this, even harming his own daughter and trying to snatch the living space of his unborn grandchild. Does he have no human emotions?
Or did he do this to complete some plan?
Are all men like this, abandoning family, emotions, and the past for their own great path and righteousness?
“Juncheng, are all men heartless?”
“Uh, why did the topic jump so much… But, heartless… Rather than heartless, I think it’s better to say ruthless.”
“Is there a difference?”
“Of course. You should know that Nana’s title is [Ruthless Succubus], right?”
“Yes, Principal suppresses her emotions to the limit, so she can rationally think and make judgments at all times. She probably became like this to manage the organization well.”
“No, you’re missing the point. This has nothing to do with being rational or not. The point is *why* they do it. Ruthless people are no different from self-harm, because they still feel the pain.”
“The feeling of pain…”
Yes, while having to hurt others, one’s own heart is also injured, and over time, the heart becomes worn out, and people become numb.
An Tianxia, is he like this too?
Can I believe that he had no choice but to do so?
“So those men who seem heartless are also stabbing themselves in the heart, it’s just that others can’t see it. Ah, but there are also men who genuinely hurt others with malice from the beginning, so you must be careful.”
“Why are you speaking like a father worried about his daughter being abducted…”
“Ahaha, I’m just worried about you.”
If that’s the case, Juncheng is truly a unique one, like a gift from heaven, the only one who will never betray or abandon us…
… Wait, then why did Zi Hua look at Juncheng like that?
Could it be that in the future, Juncheng…
“Oh, we’re here. It’s been a while since I returned home…”
Only then did I notice that we had arrived near home.
“It doesn’t seem like anyone is around.”
But it’s… eight or nine in the morning. It seems like no one is home.
“It’s normal for no one to be home at this time. It’s not a holiday, I’m definitely at school, and so are Xinran and Keling. Mom and Dad should also be busy with work.”
“You came back even though you knew no one was home…”
“Yes, precisely because no one is home at this time, that’s why I came.”
“Huh? What do you mean?”
“I’m going to sneak into the house now.”
“Eh?”
I didn’t expect Juncheng to walk directly to the front door, lift the broken stone slab under the carpet, and dig out a key from the buried soil.
(E-Sports Novel)
“Oh, it’s here! I remember keeping the spare key here.”
After wiping the mud off the key, Juncheng opened the door and walked in naturally.
I quickly followed him and asked,
“Wait, Juncheng! What are you going home to do! If someone comes back now, it will be a big problem!”
The past won’t be constrained now. Seeing past family members could greatly alter the future!
“Ah, it won’t take too long. I just want to confirm something. At this time, there should still be documents at home…”
“What is it?”
“Of course, it’s whether Keling or Xinran… which one is my biological sister!”
“Huh?”
“In my memory, my biological sister is Xinran. Keling came with Mom later. But in the previous Spiritual World, it was the opposite.”
This, it’s true.
My memory is also like this. Keling is my biological sister. I don’t know why this discrepancy occurred. Maybe it’s just a small bug, so I didn’t pay much attention to it.
I didn’t expect Juncheng to care so much about this.
The copied spiritual bodies are determined by the information illuminated by the Yata no Kagami, and Juncheng’s title also has “zhen wei” attached to it… Perhaps Keling is Juncheng’s biological sister.
But is something like this so important?
“Is this matter important?”
“Yes, very important. Li Nai once told me that Mom was cursed because the Destiny Power of the two children she was carrying was too strong.”
“Yes, which means both my brother and I have strong Destiny Power…”
That’s right! Why didn’t I think of this! If Juncheng is the Master of Fate, then Juncheng’s sister must also be the Master of Fate!
“I originally thought this referred to Xinran and me. But, is Xinran really my biological sister? I came back to figure this out!”
