Chapter 4.4 Lanhua and Returning Home
After waking up, I found myself under a clear sky.
My back ached.
I thought I would return to the Mirror World first, but I unexpectedly returned directly to the real world.
That made sense, though. Since the future has changed, anything is possible now.
But why did I wake up in a place like this?
“This is truly a more casual place to revive than any revival spot…..”
I stood up and checked my whole body. Finding my clothes neat and untouched, I relaxed and stretched my stiff body.
It seemed the worst-case scenario I was worried about didn’t happen. Well, it was unlikely to happen anyway.
Even though it was completely unlikely, I was still sleeping in a public place like a park bench, so I had to worry about potential situations.
At all times, I must prioritize my purity. Not even death should bring me disgrace; this is the fundamental prerequisite for being by Juncheng’s side.
If I couldn’t achieve this, I would be eliminated.
Moreover, in this changed world, my relationship with Juncheng has been reset to zero. Therefore, a precious second chance like this should be experienced in a more stimulating way. Huhu….
Then, I should hurry and go find Juncheng. I can’t wait, I really can’t wait, I can’t wait to have one!
With high spirits, I prepared to head towards Juncheng’s house, but I was stopped at the subway station.
It’s so strange. All the ticket machines here are broken. No matter where I try to operate, they don’t respond. Pressing them is like not pressing them at all. It doesn’t look like they’re out of power, but the screens just won’t react.
With so many machines broken in a row, wouldn’t anyone notice? They haven’t even put up a “under repair” sign. They’re so unreliable.
Just then, a woman in flashy attire suddenly appeared behind me and pushed past me.
…Hmph. I’m not particularly angry, though… Um, I’m not particularly angry, okay? At this level, I’ll let you lose your job first.
Then, when I turned around, I discovered something quite peculiar.
The woman, as if nothing had happened, naturally operated the ticket machine and successfully bought a ticket before walking away.
She didn’t even glance at me the entire time.
But it wasn’t an act of arrogance. As I’m quite adept at analyzing gazes, her eyes never lingered on me for even a second.
Can she… not see me?
Rather than making random guesses, it’s better to test it directly.
I turned around and casually found a middle-aged uncle covered in sweat. I put on a suggestive, teasing smile like a **girl and said to him.
“Hello, uncle. Aren’t you going somewhere to do something fun? Mhmm?”
Normally, even with such a cheap seductive tactic, these creatures who haven’t vented in a long time and think with their lower bodies would fall for it.
But this time, he simply ignored me and walked away.
A beautiful girl like me, and he’s not interested? Even if they’re gay, I can turn them straight. Even if they’re impotent…!
But he still ignored me…
Is this person an exception?
I would never think that. Such a way of thinking is idiotic, just like that pubescent young lady, unpleasant.
Whether the other party is special can only be determined after a long period of in-depth investigation and understanding.
Alright, it seems this is why I slept in the park instead of at home.
It seems I’ve been ‘specially treated,’ haven’t I?
–What should I try next?
I need to determine the extent of this.
After conducting some tests, I have a general understanding of my current state.
It seems it’s not simply a matter of becoming transparent anymore. No matter what I do, it doesn’t seem to affect people or things.
People can’t see me, can’t hear me. Even if I hit them, no one would notice. Events will be completed by the nearest person ‘on my behalf’.
The only thing I haven’t tried is murder, but I suspect the result would be the same.
Furthermore, even machines won’t react to me. Even if I press them, it’s as if ‘I never pressed them,’ and I get no feedback.
It’s somewhat similar to that time in the Mirror World, but the fundamental reason causing this situation is different.
And back then I was like a “ghostly beauty,” while now I’m more like an “invisible person.” Of course, it’s not just about being ‘invisible’; I’ve become ‘transparent’ in all aspects.
This is because whatever I do leaves no ‘trace.’
It doesn’t affect the progress of the entire world in any way.
It seems my sense of presence has been stolen. This situation, akin to becoming an invisible person, isn’t entirely a disadvantage; it’s more beneficial for information gathering. However, I can’t share any information or secrets I obtain.
…Will it affect anyone?
At this moment, I finally remembered the most, most, most important thing. I should have thought of it first, and perhaps I had already realized it.
But my brain deliberately blocked the route of thinking in that direction.
What about Juncheng? Will he also be unable to see me?
SF Light Novel.
No, he won’t. It will definitely be him who won’t.
Even now, I’m foolishly hoping for an exception. I know the truth, but still, I hold onto hope… and then I dare not face it.
The original plan was abandoned. I didn’t go to find Juncheng. Even now, I’m still afraid.
I dare not go to him. I rushed straight home, bumping into countless people along the way, but not a single one looked at me.
Returning home after a long time, the door was locked. But opening this lock was very simple. Now, there’s probably nothing I can’t open.
After unlocking it, I hesitated for a moment before pushing the door open and stepping inside.
The house was silent, no lights were on, and there was no sound from the TV.
“Aunty…?”
There was no response, but she was there.
Of course, she wouldn’t respond… Although Auntie didn’t notice me, I still lowered my footsteps and slowly walked towards her.
I could no longer smell that disgusting odor, nor the accumulated smell of old smoke and alcohol.
I didn’t go back to my room because I knew there would be nothing left there. What a shame about all the collectibles and recordings I painstakingly gathered… Ugh~~.
What a shame!
It’s fine to start over, but it’s still disappointing… But thinking back, I wasn’t well-prepared back then. The picture quality wasn’t great, and there was no sound. Now, starting from scratch, I can achieve perfection. Hu..hu..hu..
I wiped the saliva flowing from both sides of my mouth and sat down opposite Auntie.
She didn’t notice me and was still deep in thought. On the table was a photo frame, face down. I knew it was probably a picture of Dad… meaning, Auntie’s brother.
Indeed, this matter hasn’t changed. The only thing that has changed is… even I am gone…
However, the current Auntie is much more normal than the Auntie I knew. Perhaps a bit down, but her eyes still held a glimmer of reason; she hadn’t fallen into madness yet.
Is it because of me?
Because I was left behind as a ‘proof of love,’ she would be reminded of her failure every time she saw me, which is why she went mad trying to seek love.
She wanted to fill her own flaws with love.
SF Light Novel.
Yes, that’s why I craved love so much, wanting to love and be loved.
I think the various women who approach Juncheng, despite their vastly different reasons, have the same root cause.
They are all incomplete, flawed, and thus seek to be loved and completed by Juncheng.
Perhaps that Young Miss is the most severe case… after all, she was born with such a twisted nature.
Auntie couldn’t accept the fact that she lost the person she loved most. But with me gone, will she only be left with sorrow and regret…?
Perhaps it would have been better for her if I wasn’t here…
“Ah, it’s time to make dinner.”
Auntie muttered to herself, then stood up and walked to the kitchen, turned on the range hood, and started preparing dinner.
This scene is also one I haven’t seen in a long time.
I feel a mix of happiness and sadness. Honestly, I’m relieved to see Auntie so normal, but the root cause of this result is my absence. It does make me feel melancholic.
At least, she adopted me. We lived together, and she taught me about love… and universal love… though it was twisted.
But she never dragged me down with her. There were even scummy men who wanted to involve me too… but Auntie stopped them back then. Even though she got more injuries, she always protected me.
It’s just that, at the time, the naive me didn’t understand Auntie at all and only resented and rejected her.
One could say she willingly fell into depravity, but now I don’t think Auntie was wrong.
Love knows no right or wrong.
Auntie’s love is like that too.
In a way, I want to make Juncheng like Auntie.
Because… every man who visits Auntie looks so… happy.
Being enveloped by such selfless love would be a happy thing. I was influenced by it.
That’s why I think a harem is also acceptable…
Although I do have the desire to possess him exclusively, I can also understand Juncheng choosing to love everyone.
If I had been the first, I think I would have chosen to monopolize Juncheng.
Unfortunately, I arrived late. So, as a latecomer, I need to find a way towards a united harem.
Ha-ha-ha, to be honest, it’s also very satisfying to see those women who usually look so proper having their expressions break down in front of Juncheng and seeing their ecstatic faces… Oh my, have I awakened a new fetish?
Well then, I should go confirm Juncheng’s…
*Clang*. The sound of plates being placed on the table brought my attention back. I saw two plates of Yangzhou fried rice placed before me, with even two spoons prepared.
“Made too much again…”
Huh? Auntie… Does she remember me?
No, impossible. She must have made it for Dad. Auntie can’t possibly see me.
“Eh? The door… Did I forget to close the door?”
I forgot to close the door when I came in. Auntie just noticed the door ajar and walked over to close it…
It’s time for me to leave too.
Unfortunately, I can’t eat this fried rice, Auntie.
I quickly passed Auntie and walked out the door. I looked back at Auntie walking towards me, about to close the door… In the end, reality will surely become ‘the door closed by the wind,’ right?
But as I turned around, Auntie, who was halfway there, also stopped. She looked at the ’empty’ door and said.
“Is… someone there?”
“Only…”
I closed it. I’m leaving now, Auntie.
I will return. Now, I’m going to find my love.
However, Auntie in this world seems very lonely… If possible, perhaps Juncheng could have Auntie too… Is this thought a bit perverse?
…An aunt-niecle relationship? *giggle*
I’m so excited!
Ah, let Auntie come with me… Mmm~~ Thinking about it makes my mouth water…
Juncheng’s harem is already quite large. Adding Auntie probably won’t be too much. Auntie is also very beautiful. And actually, Auntie is many years younger than Dad and not much older than me. Her shelf life is still long.
For now, I’ll go find Juncheng first~ There’s really nothing to be afraid of!
Speaking of which… will anything I do to Juncheng go unnoticed?
Hahahahaha.
I don’t need to look in the mirror to know my smile is becoming increasingly perverted and lewd.
Now, whatever I do is as if I did nothing. No one will know, and no trace will be left.
So, next is a scene that good children shouldn’t watch—
Lights out, goodnight~
