Chapter 63.63 Jiuyuan and Aversion
“What? What’s her name?”
“Who is that? I’ve never heard that name before.”
“Well, it doesn’t matter. It’s fine if I can’t remember.”
“She’s just that soul who’s been reincarnating with Juncheng.”
“At first, I didn’t think there was anything special about her. She was just a typical NPC, like a village girl in a starting village, always present but never developing a romantic relationship with the protagonist.”
“Back then, I didn’t even realize those background characters were the same person until one day I casually noticed that soul looked a bit familiar.”
“Later, just for fun, I deepened her connection with Juncheng, making her go from a background character to a supporting role, but it was just a whim.”
“But after that, and even after that, she appeared again and again, constantly.”
“You’re not in my script. Don’t just show up on your own.”
“There’s a limit to how tenacious you can be. How many times have you been rejected? Your destiny with him won’t deepen any further. You should give up by now.”
“An eyesore.”
“An eyesore. An eyesore. An eyesore. An eyesore. An eyesore. An eyesore. An eyesore. An eyesore. An eyesore.”
“Terribly an eyesore.”
“Enough, right? Why are you still going? Are you an idiot?”
“Why are you still here?”
“Why can you still… persist?”
“Why…..”
My cheeks burned as if on fire. Those slaps she delivered were truly unrestrained and full force.
“So, it’s you.”
“book, SFA”
“I remember you.”
“I remember now—you’re Bai Yuhui. SF Light Novel”
“What do you want?”
She shielded him behind her, staring intently at me, her words carrying a warning. She had likely lost the ability for normal communication, acting purely on instinct.
“The curse has sunk deep into her bones. She has lost her humanity.”
“Unable to communicate… It doesn’t matter.”
“I never intended to communicate with you anyway.”
“Hand over part of his body. Now is not the time for a mere background character like you to waste my time.”
I completely ignored Yuhui Bai’s warning and reached out to grab the child’s wrist, binding Yuhui Bai with shadows.
“Tied up, unable to move.”
“A mere nobody, trying to stop my reunion with him?”
“Since you’re genuinely protecting him, I won’t destroy you. I’ll just leave you here to watch.”
*Crack.*
Cracks appeared on the shadows. The purplish-black aura emanating from Yuhui Bai shattered my pure black shadows.
“Must protect… Juncheng-sama…”
“Slightly surprised.”
“…”
“Somehow, she managed to break free from the shadows’ restraint on her own.”
“She’s not a non-existent being, yet she can still harm a non-existent being. This is almost impossible, but she achieved it.”
“But, so what?”
“I wrapped her again in even deeper darkness. This time, it wasn’t a restraint; I’m going to devour you, just like I devoured the other F. You’ll become my ‘shadow’ too.”
Black sewage crawled up Yuhui Bai’s feet, dissolving her clothes and leaving only her body, smoothly covering up to her neck but unable to go any further.
“…”
“Fine, this is good enough. Just stay here obediently and don’t move.”
“You’re truly an eyesore. Knowing you can’t possibly win against me, yet you still stand in my way. That’s precisely what I find so detestable.”
“You already know the outcome, yet you still struggle?”
“Utterly laughable.”
“Come, come over to me.”
I offered a kind smile and reached out towards him, who had now become a child.
But the child dodged me, looking at me with vigilance, and shouted,
“Bad sister!”
Then, he went to Yuhui Bai, who was covered in black mud, and hugged her, saying,
“Sister! Let her go quickly!”
“Was I rejected?”
“You were rejected. Without considering anything else, in the eyes of the child, Yuhui is a good person who protects him, while you are a villain.”
“You talk too much.”
“Oh dear, you’re getting angry. Yuhui hasn’t lost yet.”
The darkness was being dispelled by light. The light wasn’t dazzling; it wasn’t even proper light, just a muddy, indescribable color.
She was naked, the curse markings spread completely across her body, her entire form stained purplish-black, with multicolored light emanating from it.
The markings covered Yuhui Bai’s arms, her body, all the way to her cheeks. Only the cleavage on her chest remained the white of her skin.
Within that murky light was the color of her soul.
Ah, how defiled.
A soul fallen to a curse.
In the Akasha Records, her soul information was recorded.
I touched that light, exploring within the soul named Yuhui Bai, searching for the reason she could persist until now.
“… His words echoed in my mind. Every time I thought of his kindness and care, I couldn’t help but blush, starting to care about my actions and words in front of him. Maybe he’s like this with everyone, with no special meaning, but with a sense of anticipation, I wanted to confirm if his words were genuine, yet I was afraid of being guarded by him if I delved too deep…”
In hesitation and tossing and turning, I couldn’t help but reach down, savoring the lingering pleasure with a moist sound.
“Perhaps I’ve fallen in love with him…”
Unconsciously, I started recounting my daily life, filled with infatuation, occasionally directly conveying my feelings, even if they wouldn’t be accepted. It was like a snowball, growing deeper and deeper, becoming something much stronger.
“It was very happy, very joyful, very blissful times lingering in my daily life.”
His figure gradually occupied every corner of my heart. He grew in my heart as I wished, yearning to be held by him, imagining holding him and expressing my love. Fantasy led me through countless sleepless nights.
“…He ultimately doesn’t belong to me.”
“The fact that I ‘cannot have him’ gradually broke me down.
“The reality that he wouldn’t reciprocate made me anxious.”
“I couldn’t help but become jealous, but I didn’t want to be disliked, yet I still wanted him. In the end, I suffered, tormented by my conscience…”
“Suppress it, suppress it, suppress… I can’t suppress it anymore.”
“pok SFA”
“The emotions I desperately held back suddenly collapsed.”
“CE 62 Zhiyi”
Doubt, splitting open from a single flaw, occupied my heart, and the love within leaked out wildly.
My body felt weak, and my vision gradually darkened.
The interactions with him in my memory were gradually being devoured. My heart, once filled with sweetness, became empty, then began to rot and fester.
“To affirm my happiness, I must struggle to the very end.”
“It’s like being put in Schrödinger’s cat box. Until it’s confirmed, I don’t know if it will lead to the ending I hope for, so…”
“All of my experiences can simply be reset and redone.”
“Forget this painful and failed experience, leaving only the pure love I have for him to enter the next reincarnation.”
“Just being by his side is enough. Keeping the ‘box’ in its ‘unopened’ state.”
“This way, I can always, always love him…”
“Holding a sliver of admiration that was never reciprocated.”
“Stepping into reincarnation with a touch of longing…”
“…”
“‘What supports you isn’t just love, but also this reincarnation curse that allows you to reset love?'”
“No wonder I hate you so much.”
“What truly makes me an eyesore isn’t your love for Juncheng, but this inexplicable persistence of yours.”
“‘If I am the ‘result,’ then you are the ‘process’…’
“It’s like Juncheng is always pursuing me, and you are always pursuing Juncheng.”
“But what she pursues isn’t the outcome of being with him, but the process itself.”
“Everything Yuhui Bai has experienced proves that the ‘process’ is more important than the ‘outcome’.”
“I myself have been denied.”
“‘Truly an eyesore.'”
“So, that’s why I genuinely hate you, Yuhui Bai.”
