Chapter 18: Love and False Love
Rip a piece of cloth from her clothes and wrap it around Lu Zhiyin’s wrist wound, Long Qinxin hugged Lu Zhiyin tightly.
She threw the bloody fruit knife far away, embraced Lu Zhiyin, her eyes feeling a little sore.
The sick Lu Zhiyin made Long Qinxin feel afraid, afraid that her light would leave her forever.
Looking at the blood-stained knife not far away, Long Qinxin moved Lu Zhiyin to another position while holding her.
She dialed the private doctor’s number and continued to hold Lu Zhiyin, unwilling to separate from her.
With various emotions intertwined in her chest, Long Qinxin regretted it, regretting that she had made her Zhiyin like this.
She was dissatisfied with Lu Zhiyin’s differential treatment towards her and Leng Qing Qiu. Although imprisoning Lu Zhiyin during this period had indeed made Lu Zhiyin obedient to her, she was not as satisfied as she had imagined.
At this moment, looking at the blood-soaked cloth on Lu Zhiyin’s wrist, Long Qinxin’s mind was in a mess.
What did Lu Zhiyin think of her now? Did she hate her? Did she dislike her? Undoubtedly, it was dislike and anger…
Looking somewhat dejected, Long Qinxin helped Lu Zhiyin put on the loose silk pajamas and brought Lu Zhiyin back to the ground. Thinking that Lu Zhiyin had a fever, she wrapped her in a blanket and sat with Lu Zhiyin on the sofa, waiting for the doctor to arrive.
Her thoughts were chaotic.
“Are you worried about me, classmate Qin Xin?”
Her hands and feet were somewhat cold, while the rest of her body felt fiery. Lu Zhiyin felt more uncomfortable than ever before.
However, she didn’t care about her body at the moment but thought of striking while the iron was hot to advance the攻略 progress a little.
She lay in Long Qinxin’s arms and reached out to touch Long Qinxin’s face.
“…”
The girl’s weak voice reached her ears. Long Qinxin was at a loss and didn’t know how to reply. In the end, she just lowered her head and chose silence.
“It’s okay, don’t worry about me, I’ll be fine. I’ve been through much more serious injuries than this.”
Lu Zhiyin smiled, narrowed her eyes, and continued to caress Long Qinxin’s cheek.
The girl’s gentle voice and cold fingertips made Long Qinxin even more dazed.
Her promise and the scenes of the girl getting hurt in front of her repeatedly merged.
A hot tear slid from the corner of her eye and fell onto the back of Lu Zhiyin’s hand.
“…Why are you crying?”
Feeling the warmth on the back of her hand, Lu Zhiyin carefully wiped away Long Qinxin’s tears.
Long Qinxin had not completely blackened. Inside the hard shell, she was still the angel she once was.
What Lu Zhiyin had to do was to find ways to bring back the gentle and considerate little angel from before.
“Don’t cry, I’m really fine…”
“I’m sorry…”
Interrupting Lu Zhiyin’s words, Long Qinxin apologized dully.
“There’s no need to apologize. Classmate Qin Xin is not wrong. It’s all my fault.”
Putting down her hand, Lu Zhiyin looked at Long Qinxin with apologetic eyes.
“…I took the initiative to approach classmate Qin Xin, I chose to become classmate Qin Xin’s friend, and I accepted classmate Qin Xin’s confession and agreed to date classmate Qin Xin. After that, it was still the cowardly and foolish me who betrayed classmate Qin Xin out of fear and became involved with Leng Qing Qiu…”
Lu Zhiyin said a lot in one breath, but she didn’t stop there and prepared to say more.
Her head was hot, making her consciousness a little blurry. She lay in Long Qinxin’s arms and took a while to continue speaking.
“Well, it was also me being afraid of implicating classmate Qin Xin and making concessions to Leng Qing Qiu time and time again, which made classmate Qin Xin sad… In short, it’s all my fault, I brought it upon myself.”
“…Classmate Qin Xin, can you tell me how I can be forgiven? I really want to go back to how we were before…”
Her eyes gradually dimmed, and Lu Zhiyin closed her eyes.
She had told too many lies today and needed time to recover.
Due to the fever, she felt her mind was somewhat hazy, as if she would fall asleep at any moment.
She did not know what impact her words would have on Long Qinxin, nor did she expect to make Long Qinxin return to her former docile self with just a few words.
Rome was not built in a day. Taking advantage of being sick, using this pathetic appearance to express her attitude might also be useful?
This was what Lu Zhiyin thought, and in reality, her words had an unexpected effect.
Long Qinxin’s heart was softer than she had anticipated.
“…I’m sorry, I’m sorry…”
Apologizing incessantly, Long Qinxin shook her head. She looked at the weak girl in her arms, and hot tears rolled down, falling onto the girl.
Her heart, already filled with guilt for breaking her promise, was completely shattered by her words.
Even after being tormented and insulted like this, she still didn’t blame herself? Long Qinxin didn’t believe Lu Zhiyin could continue to pretend in such a situation.
Her previous act of cutting her wrist was so decisive, completely unlike something an emotional scammer would do.
“…I, I, I just liked Zhiyin too much, that’s why I kidnapped you and imprisoned you here…”
Long Qinxin’s emotions erupted. She pressed down on Lu Zhiyin, looking at the girl’s flushed face due to the fever. She kissed Lu Zhiyin’s lips again and again, completely unconcerned about getting infected.
“What classmate Zhiyin did is not a deception at all. I was overthinking. I didn’t consider classmate Zhiyin’s difficulties. It was all my possessiveness at work. My desire to monopolize Zhiyin blinded my heart.”
Holding Lu Zhiyin tightly, Long Qinxin buried her head in Lu Zhiyin’s chest, smelling the faint, pleasant fragrance on the girl.
“Classmate Zhiyin, you know, you are the only person who has been willing to extend a helping hand to me in recent years. You pulled me out of the abyss of endless loneliness. You are my salvation, the only light in my life. I am very selfish. I don’t want you to talk to others, I don’t want you to smile at others, and I don’t want to see you serving others…”
“I think I might have fallen in love with you. I’m sorry, classmate Zhiyin, I love you… I’m sorry, I love you…”
Long Qinxin thought, she did love Lu Zhiyin, didn’t she? It was a selfish love, a love that disregarded others.
“…”
Long Qinxin’s emotional outburst was something Lu Zhiyin had not expected. She fell into a long period of silence.
Her feverish head made it difficult for her to think clearly. She let Long Qinxin embrace and kiss her with love.
Her body was weak from the fever, unable to resist in any way.
After a few minutes of silence, Lu Zhiyin, with some difficulty, reached out and touched the back of Long Qinxin’s head.
She narrowed her eyes and looked lovingly at the black-haired girl lying on her.
“…Yes, I love you too…”
False expression, false words, but Long Qinxin could no longer distinguish them.
Content, she hugged Lu Zhiyin tighter.
And Lu Zhiyin, due to her dizziness, fell asleep again shortly after.
