Chapter 35: Everything Lost Its Meaning for Her
“Say you love me.”
Long Qinxin’s voice echoed in Lu Zhiyin’s ears, clearly audible.
She closed her eyes slightly.
She began to ponder what she should do as a doll. Should she obey unconditionally and say what Long Qinxin wanted?
Perhaps that was how it was. Maybe only then would Long Qinxin feel a little better.
Lu Zhiyin opened her mouth.
She suddenly realized she couldn’t utter words against her will anymore.
Either remain silent or speak frankly.
At this moment, what were her feelings towards Long Qinxin?
Lu Zhiyin’s body swayed.
“Speak, Lu Shiyu. If you don’t speak, I can’t help you solve Leng Qing Qiu’s troubles.”
Long Qinxin became increasingly impatient.
She thought that now, with no one else present except herself and “Lu Shiyu,” she didn’t need to continue speaking to her nicely.
Their positions were not equal.
Long Qinxin had rarely used violence against anyone. She was hesitating.
“…Qi Ling (8) Wu (4) Liu Xia Qi (7) Disgusting…”
Finally, Lu Zhiyin spoke, although the words that came out of the girl from her dream were not what she wanted to hear.
“…”
Lu Zhiyin opened her eyes. She looked at Long Qinxin, her eyes filled with undisguised disgust.
She hated the person in front of her.
Lu Zhiyin had already felt disgusted by Long Qinxin who had imprisoned her before. Now, Long Qinxin, who coerced a stranger with a similar appearance for a mere thought, made her feel even more nauseated.
“…You… Ha…”
Long Qinxin was angered to the point of laughter. She stood up.
She subconsciously wanted to shift all the blame onto the girl in front of her. She began to hypnotize herself, telling herself that it was this person named Lu Shiyu who first asked her for help, that this person came to her first.
Only then could Long Qinxin make the person in front of her submit without any guilt.
Without saying more, Long Qinxin turned and went back to the bedroom.
When she came out of the bedroom, she held a red leather collar in one hand and a long black whip in the other.
Returning to the sofa, Long Qinxin placed the whip beside her.
She ordered Lu Zhiyin to kneel on the ground, and Lu Zhiyin complied.
This comeback behavior was difficult for Long Qinxin to understand. Why would someone call her disgusting one moment and then obey her wishes the next?
Shouldn’t the girl in front of her curse at her after seeing the collar and whip?
This was different from what Long Qinxin had imagined. She thought the person in front of her would resist, so she could torment her more righteously.
“Gulp…”
Swallowing her saliva, holding the collar with both hands, and looking at the obediently kneeling girl, Long Qinxin found herself hesitant to act.
She closed her eyes, took deep breaths, and when she opened them again, her eyes held more determination.
Her hand holding the collar trembled as it approached the girl’s slender neck.
After a faint click of the buckle closing, the girl in front of her… no, she was no longer a girl. Before her was just a doll.
The doll in front of her wore Long Qinxin’s collar.
The same face, the same figure as in her memory, as if her lover had returned from the dead.
Although this was a scene she had dreamed of, Long Qinxin felt no joy.
She felt a distinct sense of dissonance.
Her lover wasn’t like this. Her family wouldn’t accept such humiliation without a word.
Whether it was resistance or tearful pleading, anything would have been better than this quiet, obedient compliance.
Long Qinxin’s grip on the collar tightened little by little.
She began to wonder why the person in front of her wasn’t resisting. Why? Long Qinxin wanted a second lover, not a doll.
“Urgh…”
As Long Qinxin tightened her grip, Lu Zhiyin gradually felt a sense of suffocation.
She had worn a collar once before, but the feeling was vastly different from now.
Back then, she was loved by Long Qinxin. Although the collar represented humiliation, its lining had been specially modified to ensure she wouldn’t feel uncomfortable.
Now, it was completely different. The collar was plain, the kind used for large dogs. Lu Zhiyin could feel the cold leather rubbing against her skin.
The inside of the collar was not smooth, but rather rough. When Long Qinxin pulled the collar, the rough inner surface chafed against her skin, and Lu Zhiyin frowned.
“Why don’t you resist?”
Long Qinxin asked her.
“You should learn to resist, learn to beg. Although she was gentle, she wasn’t like you.”
Long Qinxin wanted the doll in front of her to be more like her former lover.
She had many unpleasant things she wanted to do to her lover, especially when her lover refused her requests.
She wanted the doll in front of her to refuse her, so she could unreservedly do all the things she had been reluctant to do before.
“…”
Lu Zhiyin knew who Long Qinxin was referring to – her past self.
Recreating her past self wouldn’t be difficult, but Lu Zhiyin didn’t want to do it.
After all, she wouldn’t gain anything from it, would she? What else could she hope for in her life? Nothing. Absolutely nothing.
“I can’t do anything with you…”
Faced with the uncooperative doll, Long Qinxin pushed aside the coffee table and told Lu Zhiyin to stand up.
She picked up the whip and stood behind Lu Zhiyin.
She cracked the whip in the air, producing sharp whiplashes.
“If you’re scared, beg. If you beg, I’ll stop.”
Long Qinxin said.
“…”
She was met with the same silence as always.
Rage burned fiercely, and Long Qinxin could no longer suppress the dissatisfaction in her chest.
With a sharp whistling sound, the whip struck Lu Zhiyin’s back.
The school uniform was torn by the whip, with a large gash on the surface.
Lu Zhiyin staggered, nearly falling to her knees from the pain.
“…”
Biting her lower lip tightly, Lu Zhiyin remained silent, her face paling slightly.
Unlike the playful intimacy in the basement before, Long Qinxin was not in a playful mood when she whipped her this time.
“…Tsk…”
After a tentative strike, seeing that the doll in front of her still showed no signs of begging, Long Qinxin’s face darkened completely.
The whip rained down like a tempest, lash after lash. Soon, the school uniform on Lu Zhiyin’s back was in tatters, and her fair skin was crisscrossed with wounds.
“Mmph…”
Tears blurred her vision. Lu Zhiyin didn’t beg, her lower lip bleeding from where she bit it. She tried hard to swallow all sounds, but still couldn’t help but let out muffled groans.
She quickly lost her strength and collapsed.
In fact, Long Qinxin didn’t whip her for long. Five minutes? Or ten minutes? Lu Zhiyin wasn’t sure.
“Why don’t you beg?”
Stopping, Long Qinxin put down the whip. She grabbed the collar around Lu Zhiyin’s neck and pulled her up.
Staring intently at Lu Zhiyin’s bloodied lower lip, she threw Lu Zhiyin heavily onto the ground.
“…”
Lu Zhiyin stared at the ground in silence, her vision blurred, as if she would sink into darkness at any moment.
Would she die? No, she wouldn’t. The deity wouldn’t let her die easily. She couldn’t even die if she wanted to.
She could only continue to live as someone’s plaything, for their amusement, with no possibility of breaking free from her restraints.
Unable to resist, and with no desire to resist.
Just as Long Qinxin was about to break down completely because of Lu Zhiyin, Lu Zhiyin opened her mouth.
“…No need…”
She said.
The girl’s voice was utterly exhausted. Blood still flowed from her back. The whipping had nearly made her faint.
Not only was she mentally exhausted, but her body was also on the verge of collapse.
“No need to beg, because it’s useless…”
Lu Zhiyin lowered her gaze. She had understood this truth long ago.
“Isn’t it just asking me to be a puppet and an appendage controlled by anyone? It’s all the same for you all. Do whatever you want to me… It doesn’t matter anymore…”
Lu Zhiyin closed her eyes.
Anything was fine. Anything at all. It didn’t matter anyway; she had lost the motivation to continue living.
Her grayish hair obscured her vision, and Lu Zhiyin knelt slumped on the cold ceramic tiles.
“…Anything?”
Long Qinxin looked at the girl’s indifferent demeanor.
For some reason, the calmer the girl in front of her became, the more Long Qinxin wanted to stir up ripples on that calm surface.
How could she evoke an emotional response from this person? What was something that everyone found unacceptable?
Scanning the girl’s body, Long Qinxin seemed to have an idea and smiled maliciously.
She remembered something her lover absolutely forbade her from doing.
“Then take off your clothes.”
Long Qinxin said calmly.
Upon hearing this, Lu Zhiyin’s breath hitched. She guessed what Long Qinxin intended to do to her.
“…”
Silence. After a long silence, Lu Zhiyin’s tears fell onto her hand.
She began to unzip her school uniform.
Chastity? There was no need to protect it. Anyway… she couldn’t go home.
Behind Lu Zhiyin, Long Qinxin saw the girl’s trembling.
She remained unmoved, only feeling a sense of schadenfreude. See? This wooden person still had things she feared, didn’t she?
Long Qinxin had changed.
She was no longer the victim who had suffered bullying and isolation. She had become a scumbag who would hurt others without limits for her own selfish desires.
She had become the very person she once hated, yet she hadn’t realized it herself.
As Lu Zhiyin removed her school uniform, Long Qinxin smiled.
