Chapter 38: Is it Just a Toy?
Inside the classroom, Ouyang Qing sat quietly in her seat.
She had arrived at the classroom early. She usually liked to sleep in, but today she did not.
The reason for this…
“That guy hasn’t returned all night…”
Closing her eyes, Ouyang Qing gently stroked the head of the turtle doll at her waist.
Ouyang Qing felt tightness in her chest, and her mood was not good.
She was a little angry, and many ways to punish Lu Zhiyin flashed through her mind.
But she didn’t want to put these thoughts into practice.
She didn’t know what was wrong with her. Was she worried about Lu Zhiyin? Worried about a toy?
Ouyang Qing couldn’t see her own heart clearly. Why should she care about an ordinary human who could be easily crushed with a single hand?
It wasn’t even a pleasant time spent with that person.
Hmm… was there really no bit of happiness?
Flashes of scenes where she argued with Lu Zhiyin appeared. At that time, Ouyang Qing had only recently left her own small space.
Whether it was the claw machine or video games at the internet cafe, they were undoubtedly things that made her happy.
Was she happy when she was with Lu Zhiyin?
Touching her chest and asking herself, Ouyang Qing found that she couldn’t deny this fact.
With a heavy heart, Ouyang Qing increased the frequency of stroking the doll. She waited anxiously for Lu Zhiyin.
Her senses were magnified several times, and Ouyang Qing listened to the sound of air flowing.
She heard what she wanted to hear, familiar footsteps.
“This is your classroom, right? I’ve remembered it. You go in, goodbye. Remember, if you encounter any trouble, be sure to come find me, I’ll help you.”
After seeing Lu Zhiyin to the classroom door, Qin An reminded her as she slowly entered her own classroom.
“…”
Lu Zhiyin remained silent as ever, her footsteps not pausing. She returned to the classroom and sat in her seat.
The first thing she noticed upon entering the classroom was the agitated Ouyang Qing.
Lu Zhiyin didn’t understand why this evil god would display such a laughable expression, and she didn’t want to pay attention to Ouyang Qing.
Sitting stiffly in her seat, Lu Zhiyin didn’t know what else she could do or wanted to do.
“Lu Zhiyin.”
Ouyang Qing called Lu Zhiyin’s name. She didn’t use contemptuous terms like “little thing” to call her toy.
“…”
Lu Zhiyin did not reply, just indifferently turned her head.
“…You…”
Noticing Lu Zhiyin’s haggard face, Ouyang Qing’s lips moved, and she swallowed her words of blame.
She still maintained her divine demeanor, and despite her worry, she didn’t want to offer condolences to a human.
Ouyang Qing closed her eyes and released the restrictions on her divine power.
Using her divine power to probe Lu Zhiyin’s heart, she found that the girl’s heart was empty, and she couldn’t get any useful information.
She then probed Lu Zhiyin’s body. Besides the mottled scars, she discovered that the girl before her had lost her virginity.
“………”
Silence, long silence, and nameless anger quietly arose.
Ouyang Qing inexplicably felt angry.
“You spent the night with someone? With whom? Long Qinxin or Leng Qing Qiu?”
Ouyang Qing asked instinctively.
She was amazed by her own emotions.
Why should she be angry? Shouldn’t she be happy?
Having lost her chastity, the game was over. Lu Zhiyin had failed and couldn’t achieve the perfect ending.
She could rightfully imprison her soul, making her a doll forever, without freedom.
Ouyang Qing should have been happy, but she wasn’t.
She thought her doll was broken, dirtied.
Strange, even though this was the world she had created, everything in this world belonged to her, all her toys.
No matter who took Lu Zhiyin’s first time, in the end, it was just her toy humiliating another toy.
Ouyang Qing thought a lot. In reality, less than a second had passed. She looked into Lu Zhiyin’s eyes, gazing at those beautiful red eyes.
“…”
Lu Zhiyin gave no reply.
“Answer me, don’t you want to go home? Do you know what losing your virginity means? Our game, you lost. You will never achieve the perfect ending, and your soul will belong to me completely.”
Ouyang Qing grabbed Lu Zhiyin’s shoulder.
Her emotions were a little agitated.
Looking at the lifeless eyes of the girl before her, Ouyang Qing increasingly wanted to dig them out.
The more the person in front of her remained silent, the more Ouyang Qing missed Lu Zhiyin, who, despite fearing her, would still argue with her and complain about her in her heart.
A word flashed through her mind: a broken doll.
Ouyang Qing wanted to tear apart the broken, worthless doll before her and throw the remains into the never-ending flames to burn forever.
Every time she thought this, Lu Zhiyin’s pleading look when she left yesterday struck her like a punch.
“…Heh…”
Looking at the agitated Ouyang Qing, Lu Zhiyin opened her mouth and smiled imperceptibly.
Her smile was different from usual. It was neither genuine joy nor a fake smile to gain favor.
It was a real smile, but it was filled with only despair.
“I lost from the beginning, didn’t I? You never intended to let me go home.”
Lu Zhiyin seemed to be smiling, but Ouyang Qing could see that her soul was crying.
“…”
After the rhetorical question, Lu Zhiyin fell silent again.
Forced to participate in a game with a predetermined ending, Lu Zhiyin found herself ridiculous and pathetic. She had tried to please those demons without limits for a goal that never existed, even discarding her conscience to gain their favor.
All of this made her feel ridiculous.
Lu Zhiyin remembered that she had killed people. She told herself it was all to go home. Now that she couldn’t go home, what did the evil she had done mean?
Lu Zhiyin would not forgive the three female leads who had hurt her, and in the depths of her heart, Lu Zhiyin would not forgive herself for being tainted by darkness.
Ouyang Qing read Lu Zhiyin’s thoughts.
The girl before her, filled with despair, was self-loathing. Her spirit was on the verge of collapse; if it continued, her physical body would collapse next.
With herself present, she would not die, but the collapse of her body and spirit would not stop.
Ouyang Qing fell into confusion.
She reached out her hand and looked at her palm.
“I can give you another chance.”
Ouyang Qing thought, it’s just chastity, no big deal. She could use her divine power to restore Lu Zhiyin to her original state. She could pretend that nothing had happened and let the game between them continue.
As long as she had a goal, the girl before her would probably stop collapsing.
“I don’t need to.”
To Ouyang Qing’s surprise, Lu Zhiyin refused her offer.
“…”
In Lu Zhiyin’s opinion, even if it happened again, she still had no possibility of going home. The person before her would not show mercy. She thought Ouyang Qing probably just wanted her to regain her spirits, then crush her again, and amuse herself with her pain.
Lu Zhiyin would no longer believe in so-called deities.
Lying on the desk, Lu Zhiyin closed her eyes wearily.
