Chapter 16.8 [Stalker (Advanced)] The Illusory
[Stalker (Advanced)] The Illusory:
Why do you run away from me?
I like you this much.
“Excuse me, Juncheng, could you hit her for me?”
“Because it won’t hurt when I hit her, so hit her hard!”
This voice… yes… What is he doing?
Wait, I’ll open my eyes right away. As long as you are willing to look at me, that’s all I need. Don’t turn your back and run away…
I woke up in an instant.
I suddenly opened my eyes and saw Teacher Xiaozhen, who was full of menace, and on the other side, Anya, who was holding up her hand with an apologetic expression.
“Really, this is the last class. Even if you’re sleepy, please last till the end! Lanhua!”
Apologies for now. I didn’t expect to fall asleep in class and have a dream… what kind of dream was it?
Juncheng tapped my head, and that made me forget most of the dream. I’m not that interested, possibly because I haven’t fully woken up yet. The dream seemed more important to me. I don’t remember what happened in the middle very clearly, but I remember bringing Juncheng back to my room. Ah, yes, this is Juncheng. This is my Junbing… he never gets flustered, no matter what happens.
My heart was immediately captured by this sense of accomplishment. I climbed onto the bed and undressed us, facing each other frankly. Warm lips, the sound of intertwined saliva, all made me feel indescribably comfortable, as if reborn. Lying in his arms, I caressed his cheek, kissed him, and spoke lines like a vow.
“Don’t worry, don’t be scared… This is all a ritual? A ritual to keep you, Juncheng, with me forever…”
Whether in good times or bad. Whether in wealth or poverty. Whether in sickness or health. Whether in joy or sorrow.
Even if death separates us, until the next reincarnation…
I will find you, and be with you once again, forever with you.
“Little Lan? What are you thinking about? Your face is so red… did you get horny?”
“Huh? Ah… ‘
When I came back to my senses, I found that class was already over.
Oh no, I can’t believe I started fantasizing in the classroom. How indecent of me, Lanhua!
My panties are damp again. Evening study session is next, and it will be uncomfortable sitting down… I’ll go to the bathroom to wipe myself first.
“Although girls in puberty love to fantasize, the object of your fantasy has already left the classroom. So, shall we go eat dinner first?”
(dr牡 play)
“Where did Juncheng go?”
I blurted out without thinking.
“I don’t know. Idiot Ying, do you know?”
“Brother Ang, I saw him walking towards the library just now. He always went to the library during evening study sessions before, right? I heard there are manga there, I should go to the library next time.”
“No! Exams are coming soon. You should study properly! That’s a Southern Kingdom vacation! A Southern Kingdom vacation!”
“It’s boring… Anyway, I’m going to the cafeteria to eat. If I don’t go soon, there won’t be any seats.”
“Hey! Wait for us, you heartless person! Little Lan, let’s go too.”
“Ah, um, you guys go ahead. I need to go to the restroom first…”
“…Alright, just keep it down.”
Sakura showed a meaningful, teasing smile, and then followed A Liang out of the classroom ahead of me.
‘Keep it down’… She heard the sound from the restroom… Ugh, Lanhua, you’re an absolute idiot! A fool!
After Sakura reminded me like that, I didn’t dare to go to the restroom anymore. If I couldn’t hold it and someone heard me again, it would be too embarrassing. So, I decided to skip evening study session.
After briefly disabling the school’s surveillance cameras with my phone, I slipped past the guard and walked straight out of the school.
This kind of thing is easy to do.
On the way home, I remembered the dream again. Although the process was wonderful, the ending of the dream was the worst BAD ENDING. Juncheng ran away from me. He ran away from me with a horrified expression. Why did he run away… I don’t understand.
It’s precisely because I don’t understand that I chased after him.
Then… what did I do?
“Hey, be careful! Don’t you have eyes?!”
I was almost hit by a motorbike. Unlike Kouhai-chan in the past, I can’t lose control of myself and fall into a dream at any time. A dream is just a dream, it’s only a fantasy. I can’t even tell if it’s a man or a woman I heard… but somehow… If I really did all that, there’s no reason Juncheng would run away from me.
“I’ll never give up again!”
“Eh? Why are you back? Aren’t you going to evening study session tonight?”
“I’m not feeling too well today.”
Evening Study Session 5
“Hmph… whatever. It’s up to you.”
As if you’ve ever cared about me…
I returned to my room, locked the door behind me, and didn’t even put down my bag. The first thing I did was turn on my computer. I need to confirm Juncheng’s location first. A Liang said Juncheng went to the library, so this camera… Eh?
However, Juncheng was nowhere to be found in the library. I switched to a few other cameras, but still couldn’t find him.
I’ve installed cameras in all the places Juncheng usually goes, without any omissions. This means he’s somewhere he ‘doesn’t usually go’… Hmm, the scope is a bit broad now.
Although I really want to go look for him, my body is too tired to move today.
My spirit is also a bit listless because of the dream.
Oh well, I’ll just enjoy myself with these ‘materials’ today. Juncheng is running low on energy! Lanhua needs to recharge!
I’ll recreate the scene of hugging Juncheng in my dream… Hoo hoo.
After more than an hour, having vented my accumulated desires, I replenished my fluids and searched for Juncheng again.
To my surprise, I found him at Succubus-sensei’s house.
Succubus-sensei, wearing a tight outfit comparable to lingerie, was lying on Juncheng’s lap, her face flushed red.
Why did it turn into this!
It only took a moment, and it became like this. Juncheng, how popular are you really… This is causing me trouble.
Well, it’s not the first time something like this has happened. Anyway, as long as it doesn’t go all the way.
A shattering sound echoed. Looking down, I realized I had crushed the cup in my hand. Water and my own blood flowed out from the cracks, wetting my hand.
“What a shame… this is Juncheng’s cup…” The real shame isn’t the cup, is it?
There…
Why isn’t it me!
Why! Why! Why!
Why do they always get the benefits! It’s already generous of me to tolerate their existence. Then at least open up to me!
Bias! Bias! Bias! Bias! Bias! Bias! Bias! Bias! Bias!
If your heart is so biased, it might as well be dug out! It’s not beating anymore anyway, right! Jealousy breeds more jealousy. As I became mad with jealousy, I exploded hysterically. Just ‘looking’ isn’t enough. The more I look, the more I can’t suppress the impulse in my heart.
Perhaps it’s because I’ve always been watching him that the fire of jealousy burns hotter and hotter.
Calm down, Lanhua. Go eat something cold to cool your brain.
The strawberry ice cream I ate with Juncheng’s spoon last time was especially delicious. This time, I’ll have chocolate flavor…
However, the spoon broke in my hand.
My trembling hand could no longer control its strength.
Big eyes, a symmetrical face, dewy skin, soft lips, lustrous black hair, overflowing sexiness. That must be the appearance and figure every woman envies. Anyone who sees her would feel ashamed of themselves. No man in the world would dislike such a woman… They’d be willing to sell their souls just for a kiss.
Even I can’t help but think that way. Juncheng, as a man, would react even more strongly.
I’m so jealous, so jealous, so jealous! Even though I know I shouldn’t have such feelings, I can’t control myself. There’s no reason to act out, but sometimes…
Oh well, it might be fun to join in, but Juncheng isn’t that kind of person… It’s fine to take it slow. It’s precisely because I was too hasty that Juncheng rejected me last time.
Whew, I’ll calm myself down first. I’ll wash my face and wipe my body. I sweated a lot earlier… I walked out of the room to the bathroom, locked the door, and took off my clothes. I didn’t plan to take a hot bath. With the aim of cooling my brain, I simply turned on the shower and rinsed my body with cold water.
I exhaled the闷气 in my chest, and my body cooled down, but part of my dissatisfaction remained. It just receded slightly from the brink of explosion. The fire of jealousy in my heart was still burning brilliantly, unable to be extinguished no matter how much I poured water on it.
Could this be a type of heart disease…?
I pressed my hand against my chest, trying to suppress the uncomfortable feeling.
Speaking of which, how do they manage to get along harmoniously with Juncheng? Don’t they have jealousy?
Thinking about it, they are truly respectable…
Then I must also achieve that level to stand on the same footing… Whew, I’ve calmed down.
I’m really temperamental today. Oh my~ a girl’s feelings are so complicated~ I just have an outburst like this occasionally~
I took a bath towel from the drying rack, wiping my body and face, and walked over to the vanity. I thought I’d brush my teeth and get ready for bed.
Then I saw myself in the mirror.
–What kind of expression is this?
If Juncheng saw this expression, he would definitely run away…
Smile, show a spirited smile.
Like the Class Monitor, treating people with a smiling face can maintain a good impression in others’ hearts, and even mistakes will be forgiven.
“Smile, smile–Lanhua.”
This expression? Zero points.
I will face Juncheng with a smile brighter than that woman Ji Lianbing’s smile… No!!
Crack. The mirror shattered.
It didn’t break from me hitting it; it just shattered on its own.
The surrounding space became stagnant. Is this some kind of ‘abnormal event’? I’ve been provoking the supernatural world lately to gather information.
It’s not impossible for them to come after me. But do you think I’ll be scared by this?
In the broken mirror, I saw myself ‘smiling’.
I reflexively raised my hand to touch my cheek, but all I felt was that blank expression…
“Hey, look, there’s still a part you can’t accept, isn’t there? You thought you accepted all your emotions, but in reality, you’re still unconsciously rejecting one kind of emotion.” She spoke, in the same voice as me, with the same face… No, perhaps there were slight differences? Her voice was deeper, and her appearance also seemed different, but the cracks in the mirror and the splashing water made it impossible for me to observe carefully.
For instance, I couldn’t see her eyes clearly.
“Your words are like asking, ‘What am I?’… Don’t you know what you are?”
“Stop trying to trick me. Are you a ghost? Or a yokai?”
“Do you really think I’m some kind of mirror yokai? Don’t you understand what I am now that you see me?”
“There aren’t many, but there aren’t few, strange beings that can transform into others’ appearances. Just having the ‘same appearance’ doesn’t mean anything.”
I turned to open the bathroom door to leave, but found it wouldn’t open. Aren’t you going to let me leave…
This is really troublesome. I need to find a way to escape from here.
At this moment, I heard her continue:
“Just like Ji Lianbing’s split-off second personality, like the mouth growing behind Kaoru Tsukiyose, like the past Li Nai forgot due to death, like Lilith’s instinctual desires as a succubus, like the residual memories from Yuhui Bai’s nine reincarnations… I’ll stop listing examples. Looking at your expression, you seem to know I’m not an ordinary ‘abnormal phenomenon’ already, hehehe~”
I had heard her talk about Yu Hui’s reincarnation, but I didn’t know it was nine lives… And there are others…
Who is she? Am I? What is she implying with these words? She bit her finger and laughed alone, but it was by no means a happy laugh; it was dark, like a cracked smile. Blood flowed from her bitten finger, staining her lips, which she licked clean with her tongue.
Am I dreaming again?
“Black is grief, hatred, and resentment. Gray is doubt and complaint. White is indifference. Green is friendly coexistence. Blue is deep trust. Red is lustful adoration… What color do you think your current emotions are?”
What color am I? The color of mixed emotions…
“Although your name contains the word ‘Lan’ (Blue), how are you actually? On the contrary, that three-no-loli possesses deep emotions far purer than your fake blue.”
I don’t…
‘She’ approached the mirror, reached out her palm, and pressed it against the mirror. The blood from her bitten finger stained the mirror.
She revealed a hazy smile, her alluring eyes churning with madness… No, that’s ‘me.’
That’s… Looking at her, I couldn’t help but think this.
“Let me tell you, [Lanhua]. What color is a person’s jealousy, their possessiveness over the one they love.”
“Loving the other person so deeply, so uncontrollably, willing to kill anything for the one they love.”
“Containing love and killing, morbid adoration, representing manic possessiveness, that is…”
I walked towards the mirror, drawn by her. I also placed my hand on the mirror, my hand overlapping hers perfectly.
“Purple.”
The answer was spoken by ‘myself’.
At that moment, the world shattered, and I fell into darkness. Then, after a while, it returned to normal.
The mirror had no cracks, nor did it show ‘her.’ Instead, it showed my reflection.
I opened the unlocked bathroom door and, upon opening it, saw her again.
“I am [Zihua… You can call me that.]”
Did I walk out of the mirror?
“Huh? What are you doing standing in the hallway, naked? Aren’t you afraid of catching a cold?”
“I’ll be right back to my room…”
I pretended not to see her, ignored her existence, and returned to my room.
She disappeared. When I returned to my room, she appeared on my bed again.
“Let’s understand ‘myself’ and understand ‘love’, [Lanhua].”
I might have gone crazy, Juncheng.
It’s a shame the split personality isn’t someone gentle like Ruansui.
But… it’s more troublesome than ‘me.’
