Chapter 54.6 – The Eighth Day – Day
Kaoru Tsukiyose’s Sense of Unease:
When I woke up, I found myself lying on my bed in my room. There was a faint taste of blood in my mouth, and I instantly remembered everything that happened yesterday.
Juncheng fed me blood again!
My hunger had subsided, and I didn’t feel particularly hungry anymore. I licked my lips, feeling a sense of lingering satisfaction, but I immediately realized I shouldn’t have such feelings and shook my head, clearing it from my mind.
So, it was discovered after all… It was mostly because someone’s disobedient hair revealed everything!
“It’s all your fault! Fafa, you’re an idiot!”
“If it weren’t for me, you would have starved to death! Please, I don’t want the master I’m parasitizing to die of starvation, that’s too ridiculous!”
“Alright, alright, I can’t control you. Anyway, that guy will also come to manage you. He’ll definitely come to feed you blood again today. Let’s see how you… Heh heh heh.”
After saying that, Fafa retracted, and my hair returned to its original appearance.
“Hey! Fafa!”
Honestly! Why did you take it upon yourself to reveal my affairs!
Indeed, with Juncheng’s personality, once he knew about this, he would definitely interfere–
…Fine! I can’t let Juncheng keep feeding me blood! As I said this, I recalled the taste of that blood again. The sweet taste made me swallow involuntarily–.
If I continued to drink it… I definitely wouldn’t be able to hold back
I wouldn’t be able to hold back from devouring him…..
“Kaoru?”
When I came back to my senses, I found Xue’er’s face right in front of me. Her deep blue eyes seemed to draw people in, making me a little…
I avoided her gaze and twirled the ends of my hair with my index finger, saying.
“Ah, it’s Kaoru, are you awake too? Haha, you’re up so early.”
“It’s already ten…
“Uh… then shall we go and eat? I’m pretty hungry too.”
Xue’er nodded at my suggestion and then continued.
“Okay. SFA.”
“By the way, is there anything strange about it?”
“Oniification, you’ve become unstable.”
…
Xue’er didn’t directly point out what was strange about me, but instead, she pointed out that my Oniification was fluctuating. Has the soul I lent to Xue’er and am now possessing experienced some problems?
Does that half-soul want to return to my body… or else–
“Ah, um, there are some things…”
“Do you want it back?”
“No need, rather, it’s better for you to keep it, Xue’er.”
If this part of the soul returned to my body, Fafa would envelop it as well. I had asked Fafa, and it said that when it completely envelops my soul, something bad might happen… Fafa told me so itself.
If Fafa wasn’t resisting it itself, my soul would have been completely enveloped a long time ago. And perhaps something terrible would have happened then–
So far, I haven’t found a way to completely stop this phenomenon, but I’ve found a way to delay it. That is… drinking Juncheng’s blood….
Just a little bit of blood could slow down the spread of the black tentacles considerably. If I ate him…
No! I can’t think of such things!
If I think about it again, I’ll commit suicide!
I absolutely cannot devour a friend for my own sake!
“Yu Hui?”
“Ah, yes. Let’s go eat!”
After dragging Xue’er to have lunch,
I directly told her that I had something to do this afternoon and would be going out. If Juncheng came looking for me,
I should just say I didn’t know.
I wanted to avoid Juncheng today.
Just as Fafa said, Juncheng would definitely come to feed me blood today. Having him suck my finger like that, I’m not a baby….
I’ll just wander around the island today. Where should I go–
To be honest, I still want to be with everyone– Hmm, I can’t even endure this short while. Am I that afraid of being lonely?
g….
Where should I go.
Juncheng told me that there’s a field of Azure orchids on the island, so I’ll go there to see.
So, I walked towards it while strolling and arrived around 3 PM.
The Azure orchids under the clear sky were truly beautiful, and I even encountered an acquaintance there.
I happily waved and ran towards her. After all, I prefer being with others to being alone.
“Hmm? It’s Senior Xun.”
“Mmm! I didn’t expect you to be here too! Are you also here for a stroll?”
“…I wanted to sort out my feelings, and I unconsciously walked here.”
“Heh~ Sorting out your feelings…”
I looked at Yu Hui, who was sitting on a bench and quietly tucking her hair behind her ear.
Yu Hui, I suddenly felt that she was so… Compared to her usual self, she had a different, mature charm.
“I feel like you’ve changed a little, Yu Hui…”
Hearing my words, Yu Hui’s face suddenly turned red, and she quickly coughed twice, saying.
“Cough, cough, yes, maybe it’s because I slept well…”
“…Oh,”
“Please don’t look at me like that! Senior Xun!”
“Hehe~ I understand~ I understand~”
So that’s what happened, she “devoured” by Juncheng.
No wonder she looks so radiant. It turns out she had such a night.
She still has the scent of a succubus. It seems Lily was involved as well? Perhaps it all started because of Lily. It’s almost time for the outburst.
Oh my, it seems Juncheng had a great time last night.
“But Senior Xun, what are you doing here?”
“You don’t have to call me Senior, just call me Kaoru. Calling me Senior sounds a bit awkward. I’m also here to clear my head–”
“Yes… Can you listen to me talk?”
“Of course! I’m happy to oblige!”
I actually love listening to people tell stories, so I was naturally willing to listen to Yu Hui’s account.
“…I don’t know where to start, but I know I’ve never been the chosen one. Even after countless reincarnations, I couldn’t get… what I’ve always longed for.”
Yu Hui is probably talking about Juncheng. Reincarnation, I heard about it in the underworld before. And Yu Hui, for some reason, still remembers her past lives? That means she might know the Taoist Juncheng? I’ll ask her later. I’m quite interested in Juncheng’s past lives too.
“Finally, I gave up. Gave up on chasing after him.”
“I thought everything would end here, but in this life, I met Lord Juncheng again… and was fortunate enough to be embraced by him. Everything I once wanted suddenly materialized, and so effortlessly.”
“Are you lost because you’re too happy?”
“…Yes, I can’t help but think, is this really…”
“Hehe, what’s wrong with that? Just enjoy it to your heart’s content.”
“But I gave up… I shouldn’t be worthy–.”
“Giving up is your choice. But accepting you is Juncheng’s choice. The choice was already made back then. Do you want to pursue what you once desired again?”
“…And… You’ve already chosen to fall into Juncheng’s embrace, haven’t you?”
“Ah–.”
“Heh, so, go ahead and enjoy love, maiden! It’s the best age for it–”
Looking at Yu Hui, I suddenly felt “This is youth!” Involuntarily, my heart had become as old as a grandmother’s.
“Mmm… As expected of Kaoru Tsukiyose. No wonder Lord Juncheng wanted to return to your embrace after his death in that past life.”
Seeing my confused expression, Yu Hui tilted her head and asked.
“Hmm? Don’t you remember?”
“Juncheng’s past life… I remember he was a Taoist priest–.”
He taught me some spells and inspired me to leave the underworld and come to the human world– Wasn’t that Juncheng’s past life?”
“That was just one of Lord Juncheng’s past lives. He has many past lives. One life as a human, where he had a deep bond with you.”
“…Have I met Juncheng before?”
Wasn’t Juncheng’s past life my benefactor?
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What…
Why don’t I remember?
If something so important had happened, I couldn’t have forgotten.
I started searching my memories carefully, only to find a blank space in my memory, and a disappeared ‘black’.
Right, he was my first friend. He-… He- He’s what’s his name again?
_ – My name is ■■, who are you?
…It’s..–..
“Who exactly!!!”
“Kaoru?! What’s wrong!”
Yu Hui’s voice echoed in my ears, then gradually faded away.
– Well, I think… I’ll be called Kaoru Tsukiyose with you! From today onwards, we’re friends!
■ gave me a name, called Kaoru–.. Meaning floral fragrance? Humans are really strange.
Today I met with a again. He keeps coming to find me every day, even though I told him not to come near here.
■■ smiled brightly and made a flower crown for me.
■ said he wanted to be a general. A general seems to be the most important person in this country.
….
The person who gave me my name, my first-.- He, what was his name again?
Right, why did we-.- slaughter the city and kill people…. I remember it was for revenge, but—Who?—
I hugged my head in horror, grabbed my hair, and desperately tried to recall the past, wishing I could dig into my brain and rummage through it.
To dig out those memories.
Those memories I cherished like treasures were so incomplete.
Why didn’t I notice this until now?
Think desperately, desperately.
But I can’t remember.
It’s like chunks were forcibly dug out from a complete portion…
Endless sense of unease.
Is the person I forgot Juncheng’s past life?
The shadow of memory, the incomplete parts, the unfillable void in my heart.
Fragmented memories are still playing out.
