Chapter 48: Mixed Feelings
Miss Shirley said I needed to stabilize my existence, so I had to retrieve the memories I experienced in this world, and Mom kept those memories.
Later, Lou Ling told me that for the sake of the plan, it was not possible to retrieve the memories, so the matter was put on hold.
But no matter the reason, I still have to go and see her.
In this world, Li Nai did not turn into a zombie and does not live underground, meaning she lives alone…..
Living alone in that isolated underground must be very lonely.
Speaking of which, she endured that curse because of me. Can I ask the world to lift the curse placed upon her?
The light above the operating room turned from red to green, signaling the end of the surgery.
I quickly got up and went to the operating room door to welcome Xueqing after the surgery. Looking at Xueqing lying on the bed with a respirator, my heart bled.
“Xueqing…”
Xueqing was actually still awake, her eyes half-open, and she made a weak sound.
She was awake throughout the surgery… I held her small hand and said, “You don’t need to reply. Just rest well and get better soon.”
“Phew, that’s great. She’s finally closing her eyes to rest. We gave her anesthesia, but she just refused to close her eyes and remained semi-conscious…”
The doctor who came out with us took off his mask. Seeing Xueqing finally fall asleep peacefully, he breathed a sigh of relief and said so.
Nana glanced at Xueqing, then looked at me and said, “Perhaps it’s because someone is finally holding her hand.”
I just heard that when Xueqing was found under the ruins, she was holding onto something… For her, that was the object her young heart could place its hope on.
That’s why Xueqing was so attached to the incomplete… Because that remaining hand was her only ‘family’.
I stayed with Xueqing all the way. After seeing her settled in the hospital bed, I let go of her hand. As my hand left hers, Xueqing’s expression in her sleep turned uneasy, and her hand moved as if searching for something. I felt reluctant, so I held her hand again.
…I won’t leave. I’ll stay here with her today.
“Aren’t you going back?”
“Yeah, I’m not going back today. I’ll stay here with her.”
“…”
Nana didn’t say anything more and didn’t try to persuade me to go back. The empathetic succubus must have sensed my current mood.
“Xue’er!”
An anxious voice came from the doorway. It was Xuan’er.
She looked at Xueqing lying on the hospital bed and almost cried out in surprise. She quickly covered her mouth with her hands, but some sound still escaped.
I saw tears welling up in her eyes. As she blinked, large teardrops streamed down her face. Xuan’er and Xueqing were best friends, and she cared about Xueqing more than anyone. She even entrusted her soul to her… This shows how much Xuan’er trusted Xueqing.
“How could this be? Xue’er is so severely injured… It’s all my fault…”
“This has nothing to do with you. If you want to blame someone… No, let’s not blame ourselves. In any case, the fact that Xueqing survived is a blessing in disguise.”
“…”
Xuan’er also looked very dejected. Her mental state was already unstable, and this blow made me really worried that she wouldn’t be able to handle it.
The ward fell silent again. Everyone was sad, and the atmosphere was a bit heavy.
“Something like this has indeed happened… But I couldn’t help at all this time…”
Xuan’er wiped her tears, cheered up, and suddenly said, “Nana, was this also planned by the organization?”
Wait, planned by the organization? What does that mean?
“This city has so many ghosts because of the ‘Zombie Crisis’ that happened before, right? It produced many living corpses, so many ghouls gathered here. And these ghostly creatures will devour the weak for their evolution… When ‘small fish’ like ghouls gather in large numbers, they naturally attract other ‘big fish’.”
So, the reason ghosts came to this city was ultimately the zombie crisis?
And the zombie virus was spread by the organization. The underground city that exists now was originally a newly developed area. After the incident, it was entirely brought into the inner world and became part of it.
The zombie virus was spread to find the Plague’s Calamity, which is Li Nai. Later, in the underground, Lianbing awakened as the Disaster of Death surrounded by corpses. Ghouls were lured by the zombies, which caused Xuan’er to commit a taboo and finally awaken as the Calamity of Famine. Similarly, Xueqing awakened as the Calamity of Slaughter during this process.
Now that I think about it, everything is connected.
Could it be… that everything was planned by the organization?
I felt a chill down my spine.
“What’s going on, Nana? I need an explanation.”
“…I didn’t know things would develop this far.”
Nana also frowned deeply… Was she truly unaware? Or perhaps… things had exceeded her expectations?
Xuan’er stared at Nana for a while, then shifted her gaze back to Xueqing, and then said to me, “Forget it, we can talk about those things later. Let’s take this opportunity, Juncheng, to establish a destiny connection with Xue’er.”
I almost choked on my own saliva.
Suddenly saying something like that…
Now is not the time to think about this.
The originally serious atmosphere suddenly became strange. Speaking of establishing a destiny connection, it requires me to stick out my tongue and lick…
Licking Xueqing, who is still lying in bed, is beyond perverted; it’s at the level of depravity.
Only a madman could do that!
“Let’s wait until Xueqing wakes up to discuss this. It’s not good to do so without her consent… Besides, she’s still bandaged right now.”
“It’ll be too late when Xue’er wakes up. Juncheng, do you know Xue’er was originally a murderer?”
“Yes, Nana just told me.”
“A murderer needs to kill within a specified time. But Xue’er is in no condition to recover quickly. Even my saliva won’t heal her that fast.”
“Ah, there’s this problem too…”
Xueqing’s main problem is severe blood loss, and it’s unknown when she’ll wake up. During this period, she won’t be able to hunt for murderers.
Although this time is usually set by the possessing ghost, I don’t think that ghost would be kind enough to extend the time just because Xueqing is injured… In the end, you can’t count on them. Who knows what that ghost is thinking?
“Or I can catch a murderer for her.”
“No need to go through such trouble. There’s a way to solve it permanently. As long as you, Juncheng, establish a destiny connection with Xue’er, Xue’er will be freed from her shackles.”
Establishing a destiny connection can solve it?
“Because I’ve already broken free from the rules of a ghoul. Establishing a destiny connection with you will allow me to return to my ‘original state’. Originally, the awakening of a Witch of Calamity was bound to be accompanied by a calamity, but now I’ve skipped that process.”
I originally thought that after Xuan’er re-established the destiny connection with me, she had only recovered her memories from the original world. But after Nana told me today, I realized it wasn’t just that.
Her soul was complete, she no longer needed to eat corpses, and most importantly, she had lost a large amount of blood. These were all characteristics of Xuan’er after awakening as a Witch of Calamity.
Why blood specifically? Her ability could choose other things.
Because in the original world, Xuan’er chose blood at the beginning of her awakening… It was to preserve my blood.
This means that re-establishing a destiny connection is not as simple as recovering memories; it traces back to the root, restoring her to the appearance at the time of awakening, skipping the intermediate process.
But nothing calamitous happened when Xueqing awakened…
Xueqing was stabbed through the chest by a crazed Xuan’er at that time. I used Destiny Power to save her life. The resurrected Xueqing awakened as the Witch of Calamity of Slaughter, gaining the ability to slay all things.
Speaking of which, I was actually able to do something like that back then… Even with the immense Destiny Power I possess now, I can’t resurrect someone on the spot.
Is it still related to how it’s used?
“Don’t you want Xue’er to recover quickly? Returning to her original state means her current injuries will also disappear.”
Yes, based on this deduction, her injuries would indeed disappear…
“In other words, this is an act of healing.”
“An act of healing…”
I feel like I’m trying to convince myself, and also trying to find an excuse for my perverted behavior…
“It’s not good to bother an injured person like this. Can we wait until Xueqing gets a little better?”
“Don’t procrastinate anymore. This is for Xue’er’s good. Can you bear to see her remain in this state? Besides, Xue’er can’t perform Oniification right now. But given Xue’er’s personality, she’ll surely continue to stubbornly hunt ghosts. Can you stop her?”
.”…No.”
“So, after awakening, Xue’er will also gain power, and she won’t be in danger like this again. From any perspective, establishing a destiny connection between you and Xue’er now is the best choice.”
“Mmmmm…”
This is bad, I feel like I’m almost being convinced.
But I also have a feeling that if I really do it, I’ll become even more depraved.
Why did the situation turn out like this? It feels like just a few minutes ago, the ward was filled with a solemn and heavy atmosphere, but now, that sense of grief has disappeared without a trace.
“As Xue’er’s best friend and confidante, I approve! Xue’er will definitely forgive you too!”
Indeed, given Xueqing’s personality, she probably wouldn’t care about such things. I would be forgiven.
“So, hurry up and lick!”
What does it feel like to be forced by a loli to lick another loli?
It’s like wearing your father’s suit to a shady bookstore to buy adult comics…
Stimulating yet accompanied by a sense of guilt.
