Chapter 50: Valuing Oneself
“What are you doing?”
How should I answer when asked what I was doing?
Honestly say I was licking your belly? How could I possibly say that!
I turned my head to look at the two instigators, but at this moment, they both turned their heads in different directions with perfect tacit understanding. Hey, hey, hey! Take responsibility!
Looking at Xueqing’s pure and innocent eyes, I completely broke down. The guilt in my heart was rapidly swelling. At this moment, only sincere repentance could redeem my soul.
So, I decided to tell Xueqing the truth.
“Actually, I was just now… well, you see…”
As I was saying this, two hands, one large and one small, reached out from either side and covered my mouth.
“He was saying that Xue’er was sleeping soundly just now!”
“That’s exactly right.”
Even Nana was earnestly spouting nonsense. Perhaps it was to protect her image, wanting to conceal what had just happened.
Me, deceiving an innocent loli like this… Do you have no sense of guilt at all!
“Sleep… I’m… alive…”
At this moment, Xueqing seemed to recall what happened before, looking at her body and muttering to herself.
Her expression clearly showed she hadn’t expected to still be alive.
Indeed, if I had arrived just a few seconds later, Xueqing might have already…
No, there are no “ifs.” It’s precisely because I arrived in time that I can witness Xueqing waking up right now.
Suddenly, Xueqing looked up at me and asked.
“You… saved me?”
I nodded in acknowledgment. However, we should really thank Mr. Shadow. If he hadn’t guided the way, I wouldn’t have been able to find you, Xueqing.
book.SFA.
“Thank you.”
SH.
“No need to thank me. You’ve taught me so many times… 5 light novels”
Xueqing tilted her head and asked doubtfully.
“Saved me? When…?”
Xun’er nudged my ribs with her elbow, silently mouthing “Loose lips.”
I’ve let my tongue slip again. I really can’t keep secrets…
Fortunately, at this moment, Xun’er helped me divert Xueqing’s attention and brought up another topic.
“By the way, Xue’er, why did you go alone! Are you out of your mind! Those ghosts were all waiting for an opportunity when you were alone!”
“The other way around… is also an opportunity.”
“What kind of opportunity is that! You know that without our souls, you can’t undergo Oniification. And even if you could, you’d be helpless against ghosts with special abilities! If Juncheng hadn’t arrived in time, do you think you’d still be alive now?”
This was the first time I’d seen Xun’er so agitated. Xun’er had always had a good temper, rarely getting angry, always smiling.
Even if I made a mistake, she would only chide me with a smile. But today, facing Xueqing’s reckless behavior, she was truly angry.
“So what?”
But Xueqing didn’t;
Do anything wrong.
The most important thing to her was to track down that ghost… Nothing else mattered, not even herself.
It was all for revenge. Therefore, even if she died on the path of revenge, whether or not she succeeded in avenging herself became irrelevant.
Because originally, she had nothing.
“It’s just… listing…”
*Slap!*
A crisp sound echoed in front of me. I saw the scene of a palm meeting a cheek.
Xun’er had actually slapped Xueqing.
After hitting Xueqing, Xun’er also clenched her palm. Sometimes, the person who hits feels more… heartache than the person who is hit.
I can understand this feeling… truly, I understand it very well.
“What do you mean ‘just listing’… There’s nothing more important than yourself!”
“Do you know how worried I was about you! Why did you go alone without a word! Didn’t I tell you never to face a ghost alone!”
“Why didn’t you come to me!”
Xun’er’s shoulders, and even her entire body, were trembling. She was angry, angry at Xueqing, and angry at herself.
She was blaming Xueqing for not relying on her, and also blaming herself for not being Xueqing’s reliance.
“I don’t want… to drag you… in…”
“What do you mean by dragging me in! Do you think that’s for my own good!”
Xueqing remained indifferent, saying nothing. I had the same expression as Xueqing.
“Do you think that’s for my own good!”
This sentence struck right at my heart, as if it were said to me…
“Don’t you dare go alone again…”
Xun’er hugged Xueqing, her voice choked with tears, speaking her true feelings.
Xueqing also closed her eyes, hugging Xun’er’s back, and agreed.
I could understand both of their feelings, even empathize with them.
Xueqing was like me in the past, not valuing herself, willing to sacrifice herself to achieve her goals… But in the eyes of those who cared about her, this was a mistake.
Sacrificing oneself for others was a wrong idea. The first thing a person should value is themselves.
“…Love…”
You must have wanted to criticize my foolishness long ago.
But you never blamed me, not until the very end… You only sacrificed yourselves for me… In turn, I experienced your feelings, how painful it is to lose someone important.
“…Xue’er, continue the treatment,” CCz,
Xun’er sniffled, rubbed her face against Xueqing’s, and said so.
Continue the treatment? I was taken aback for a moment before I understood that this so-called “treatment” referred to the action from just now.
And as I understood, Xun’er turned back and commanded me.
“Juncheng, come here quickly!”
“Uh, we have to continue?”
“Of course! We must establish a fated connection quickly! Otherwise, Xueqing still won’t be able to get rid of that damned possession!”
That’s true. Otherwise, Xueqing would have to drag her injured body to hunt down the killer ghost…
“You coward who doesn’t even dare to show up! Don’t think I’ll thank you just because you saved Xueqing! In the end, that plane crash was caused by those ghosts! They are the instigators, yet they dare to deprive Xue’er of her freedom? What a joke! Just you wait, I’ll obliterate you until not even ashes remain!”
Directing all her anger towards the ghosts that harmed Xueqing, Xun’er was now as terrifying as if possessed by an Asura. I even felt my heart blood surging.
“Juncheng, hurry up! Don’t dawdle and waste time!”
In the face of the imposing Xun’er, I naturally didn’t dare to say anything more. I could only obediently lean over and stick out my tongue.
Then, under Xueqing’s confused gaze, Xun’er unbuttoned the remaining buttons, opened Xueqing’s chest, and pressed the back of my head, forcing me to lean in.
I moved up along Xueqing’s midline, to the junction of her collarbones. My tongue suddenly started to burn.
This… I’ve got it!
“It’s coming!”
“Did you find it!”
Xueqing’s mark is on her neck!
Below her throat, at the junction of her collarbones, a red sword appeared.
It looked very much like Emiya Kiritsugu’s Command Spell, but with differences in all sorts of details.
The most obvious was that the end was single-sided… In that case, it should be a saber.
Sp SE
Xueqing’s hair turned completely white, and her irises turned crimson. She instantly released a terrifying killing intent, making my skin sting, as if it could actually wound me.
Nana reflexively spread her wings and assumed a defensive stance. The sound of bottles shattering repeatedly came from outside the hospital room.
Only Xun’er and I showed no rejection or resistance, welcoming her with a natural posture.
At this moment, it was necessary for us to trust her, to give her a place to belong.
As Xueqing’s right pupil slowly turned deep blue again, the piercing killing intent disappeared… No, it was contained, enveloping us, yet not targeting us.
This killing intent was meant to protect us—containing this information.
“Is it Qing’er?”
“Mhm.”
Xueqing gently hugged me and thanked me again.
“Thank you, and Xun’er.”
So, I already said… no need to thank me….
“Mmm~~~ Xue’er! I’ve missed you so much!”
Xun’er pounced directly and hugged Xueqing from the front, her flat chest pressing down on my head, while her upper body leaned on my back.
It became a loli sandwich. The situation… it felt like ribs in front and back, my head hurt so much.
“Juncheng! My mom said… Huh?”
Lily ran in and then froze upon seeing the situation.
My gaze towards her slowly turned cold. I took out my phone and pressed four times (three digits plus the dialing key) and said:
“Hello, is this the police? There’s someone being lewd here…”
“Wait!”
“I’m not! I didn’t! E, don’t say it!”
“…I really didn’t (crying)!”
