Chapter 70: Dedicating Everything
Why is she suddenly saying something like this?
I should have asked that, but surprisingly, I understood the meaning and reason behind Yu Hui’s question.
She probably misunderstood that I was being influenced by my past life’s memories again.
I heard that in my previous life, I was a very frivolous guy who hooked up with girls everywhere. Yu Hui must have thought I was influenced again.
“Cough, pardon me. Suddenly saying this must have confused you. What I meant was, there might be a problem with your soul, which caused your past life memories to awaken.”
“…”
I originally wanted to simply reply “It’s okay” like before, but then I suddenly remembered Lianbing telling me to be more distant, so I added a few words in front to feign indifference.
“This has nothing to do with you.”
That one sentence ignited… her voice instantly soared. Fortunately, the floor was quite high; otherwise, a large crowd of students and teachers would surely have surrounded us.
By the way, everyone is in class, so why are you here, Yu Hui? Coming to find me specifically by skipping class means she believes the matter is very serious.
Yu Hui also realized this wasn’t a place to talk and pulled my hand as we went downstairs. I felt like I was caught doing something wrong and being taken home by my parents… Although I didn’t experience that in my childhood.
Yu Hui pulled me back to the stairs leading to the rooftop. Seeing the blocked door, she performed a dazzling series of operations with one hand, moving all the piled-up desks and chairs, and then unlocked the door leading to the roof.
I thought attempting to walk away at this point would be the better option, but after trying to break free, I found that I couldn’t budge at all… Yu Hui’s arms looked slender and fair, but the part holding me was as tight as a vise.
…The Yu Hui of the past shouldn’t have been able to do this.
At least I remember being able to resist her strength before? But now I’m completely defenseless?
“Please stop being so childish. Have you forgotten your last experience? If this continues, your memories will be overwritten by your past life memories, and your self will be erased!”
“That will never happen. Your concern is unnecessary.”
Trying to speak to Yu Hui with an indifferent attitude has become very uncomfortable… I was originally the type of person who kept others at a distance, but using this attitude towards Yu Hui fills me with guilt and remorse.
It felt like betraying someone who trusted me, and my heart was severely scourged.
A moment of softness will only make things worse…
Lianbing must have guessed I would be like this, which is why she repeatedly emphasized that I couldn’t be soft.
She knew that as long as she planted that crucial nail in my mind, I wouldn’t act emotionally.
…Emotions, I’ve long surpassed them.
“You don’t need to worry about it anymore. I’m not influenced by my past life memories. I am me, Juncheng An, and I won’t be anyone else.”
“Then why do you like that wo—”
“I just like her, is that a problem?”
“Are you under some sort of illusion? Perhaps in your eyes, Xu Jiaojiao looks very beautiful, but in reality…”
“This has nothing to do with whether she’s beautiful or not.”
Yu Hui was momentarily speechless. She probably didn’t expect me to be so tough… Well, I haven’t been tough to others much.
The hand holding my wrist loosened its grip. Seizing this opportunity, I shook her hand off and rubbed my wrist, saying impatiently,
“You’re being too meddlesome. I said I’m fine, and I am. I don’t need your help recently, so you can go back.”
Go back quickly… really, please, Yu Hui.
I don’t want to say anything more to hurt you… If this continues, your emotions will only be amplified, and you’ll eventually lose control…
…Huh? Could it be that Lianbing’s goal is to accelerate the amplification of their emotions?
I suddenly thought of this crucial point.
Lianbing must know that treating them with such a cold attitude would stimulate their emotions and accelerate the amplification of their latent feelings.
But what is the purpose of doing this… What exactly does Lianbing want to achieve?
I originally thought Lianbing was just helping me resolve my issues with my younger sisters to complete Li Nai’s matter and gather the four great auspicious beings. But now it seems she has other plans.
However, I can’t fathom the thoughts of a woman, let alone the thoughts of a goddess like Lianbing.
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At this moment, Yu Hui started speaking again.
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…If you just want a woman to play with… die.
She looked up at me, her pitiable posture making me want to hold her.
Yu Hui pressed her chest and asked me with an expression that seemed like begging? Or perhaps praying.
“…Is it not okay?”
My heart started to race. I really, really, really wanted to say, ‘You are ten thousand times better than her. How could that effeminate Xu Jiaojiao compare to you, Yu Hui?’… But I couldn’t.
Gritting my teeth hard, even though my heart ached, I had to be firm here.
“…No!”
But Yu Hui didn’t give up. She unbuttoned her school uniform shirt, exposing her chest, as if showing everything, and said to me,
“I consider myself more beautiful than her. Or, if you like, I can transform into her appearance. I swear I can do better than that woman. I can satisfy all your desires… So, Lord Juncheng, please use me.”
Ugh—
If I don’t agree to this, can I even be considered a man? I must agree, I must agree! Honestly, Yu Hui is so good… She’s very F, but! I must choose that effeminate Xu Jiaojiao!
What a painful choice… It hurt so much I could vomit blood. This time, it’s not just my heart aching for Yu Hui, but also for wasting such a great opportunity.
Yu Hui is a person of her word. What she says, she will definitely do. That means, as long as I agree now, I can once again have Yu Hui serve me in her cat lingerie… Cough, not just cat lingerie, she wouldn’t refuse anything I asked her to wear. I could play with any part of her, engage in any kind of play. Such a good thing is even cooler than being the protagonist of an H-game.
Cough, I’m just giving an example. After all, I still can’t choose Yu…
Moreover, the fact that she would say such a thing without hesitation shows that Yu Hui’s emotions have indeed been amplified.
Is it like Xinran, whose amplified desire to be depended on? No, there’s a subtle difference… Although their actions seem similar, the emotional details they display are different.
She’s not asking ‘What do you need?’, but directly telling me ‘What I can give you’. This difference is because…
“I can accept you better than anyone else. I can accept everything about you. I swear I will never betray you and will always be by your side, no matter what. So, you can do whatever you want to me, treat me the way you like… It’s okay even if you break me.”
Perhaps Yu Hui herself doesn’t know what she’s saying right now. Her eyes are filled with obsession. Her spirit, strengthened by memories of enduring countless reincarnations, has now coalesced into an unshakable belief.
What Yu Hui’s emotions have been amplified is…
The emotion of dedication.
“I don’t need it.”
A long silence.
Only the whistling north wind on the rooftop.
Yu Hui lowered her head. The word “disappointment” almost materialized around her.
But would Bai Yu Hui give up so easily? As a woman who has followed me through nine reincarnations, she wouldn’t despair from a few rejections.
Therefore, after only a few seconds, Yu Hui raised her head again and said to me with a resolute tone.
“…I see. I understand. If you absolutely must have Xu Jiaojiao, I’ll go catch her for you.”
Hiss!
I almost spit out my drink; in my heart, I had already spat it out.
How did she draw that conclusion?!
It’s like a little demon telling the great king, ‘I’ll go catch Tang Sanzang!’ isn’t it?
“Why are you looking for him?! This has nothing to do with him!”
“Didn’t you only want Xu Jiaojiao?”
“Then why can’t I do it?”
Yu Hui is forcing me to make a choice. Although her tone sounds gentle and as if she’s considering my feelings, she’s actually asking a question that makes it impossible to choose: ‘Do you want me or Xu Jiaojiao?’
Seeing my silence, Yu Hui simply crouched down and said,
“Please don’t worry. I will train her to be devoted only to you, unable to live without you.”
What the hell is “**”?! You want to turn Xu Jiaojiao into a “**”! You mean, he’s an effeminate guy, and an effeminate “**” is just too terrible!
This won’t do. I can’t let Yu Hui do something so awful.
“Wait!”
I grabbed Yu Hui directly.
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Damn it, if I really let her go, it would be a disaster.
Xu Jiaojiao isn’t a real woman. If Yu Hui really caught him, she would definitely notice that he’s a man.
Then it would cause a series of problems. It would be very troublesome.
Moreover, given the current situation, Xu Jiaojiao is, to some extent, my ally. If I let Yu Hui go after him, wouldn’t that be equivalent to betraying him?
So, it seems I have to use the tone I least want to use.
“Bai Yu Hui, I am now ordering you, do not interfere in my affairs anymore, understand?”
Saying this meant the relationship of equality I had painstakingly built with Yu Hui would crumble.
Yu Hui would no longer be my friend and would revert to being that person who was submissive to me… like an obedient puppet.
I really don’t want this… Tsk!
“And don’t go looking for trouble with Xu Jiaojiao!”
I know Yu Hui will agree. Even if she’s unwilling, she will agree, because she is Bai Yu Hui, who has gone through nine reincarnations with me.
“…I……….”
Her tone was weak and powerless.
I originally wanted to turn and leave directly, but in the end, I couldn’t help but look back.
I thought Yu Hui would be very unwilling.
But the expression I saw when I looked back was not like that…
Yu Hui looked at me as if she were very happy, with a dazed smile and a blush on her face, as if she had reached ecstasy.
Seeing her expression, a terrifying thought surged into my mind. Perhaps if I told her to die now, Yu Hui would die without hesitation with a happy smile.
She who would dedicate everything to me… she trusts me.
Bai Yu Hui, her reason has already vanished.
