Chapter 49.94 Xinran and Memories
Xiao Bai left with that woman named Zi’ai, and another man. The three of them walked away together.
Xiao Bai didn’t explain to me exactly why, probably because of the time urgency and no time to explain.
It must be something very important, and it’s related to Brother.
Because the only thing that can make Xiao Bai take it so seriously is Brother.
To be honest, I really wanted to go with them, but Xiao Bai told me to stay here and take care of Keling. I can’t leave Keling’s side now.
That’s right, Keling only has me by her side now, I have to take good care of her.
“Keling, are you tired?”
“……”
“But looking at you, you don’t seem fine at all.”
“Don’t worry, Sister Xinran. At this point, how can I say something so willful?”
“…..”
Actually, Keling has always been sensible, she’s never been a child who throws tantrums.
It’s just that when it comes to Brother, she becomes a little obsessive.
Keling lowered her head and remained silent, she’s been like this since a while ago. She must be worried about Brother too…..
I wanted to touch her a few times, but I stopped myself. I don’t know how to comfort her anymore.
I’m such an unqualified older sister.
Brother, what would you do at this time?
If it were Brother, he definitely wouldn’t let Keling have this expression…
Suddenly, I remembered something from a long time ago…
I remember it was a very cold winter. That year, there was an unusually heavy snowfall, it felt like it was half as tall as our young selves.
That day was New Year’s Day, and also Mom’s death anniversary.
Every New Year’s Day, we would go to sweep the grave.
Because the heavy snow blocked the roads, we could only temporarily stay at the funeral home.
Then, what happened to me? Right, when I went to the restroom outside alone, I missed a step and fell somewhere.
Thinking about it now, it was probably the old cemetery. I, a young child, got lost in the cemetery. My shoes were nowhere to be found. I crouched behind a tombstone, hiding from the wind and snow, crying silently.
I don’t know how much time passed, but I heard Brother calling my name.
-Xinran! Xinran! Xin!ran!
His voice was hoarse. I don’t know how many times he shouted, or how long he searched, but his voice was Lanhua, loud enough to be heard through the howling wind.
I stood up and waved, Brother found me and came to my side. His face was purple and blue from the cold, his ears were red and swollen, and even his frozen cheeks couldn’t show an expression of anger. When he found me, he directly hugged me.
“…Found you.”
It was so cold, my whole body was freezing, colder than me. He was in the wind and snow, constantly searching for me.
“Hmm? Where are your shoes? …Never mind, you wear mine first.”
I could only cry and say, “I’m sorry…..”
Then Brother took my hand, and as he led me back, he said to me.
“Don’t cry anymore.”
Don’t…
But I still cried, tears uncontrollably flowing.
I swore in my heart that I would never cry again.
Never cry in front of Brother again.
Brother didn’t wipe my tears, he just said to me.
“Don’t be afraid even if you encounter danger. It will definitely be alright.”
Then he said something I will never forget…
What did Brother say at that time?
He just said with certainty.
“I will protect you.”
I said the same thing to Keling and hugged her.
It’s been so many years…
Ah, Brother, you are not here anymore, it’s my turn to protect Keling.
“Xinran… Sister.”
“Yeah? Why are you suddenly calling me Sister?”
“I just felt like calling you that.”
“…Hehe.”
“What are you laughing at?”
“Nothing. It’s just that when you suddenly call me that, it feels so sweet.”
But this also means that Keling finally Acknowledged me as her older sister.
I suddenly felt a strange sense of emotion. In our previous world, Keling and I never had a relationship this good.
Although I don’t know if it’s because we are in a dangerous situation and Brother is not here, so Keling has developed a dependence on me… There’s no need to dwell too much on the reason, whether it’s out of what kind of mood or purpose.
She depends on me now, and knowing that is enough.
This fact alone makes me happy both physically and mentally.
“Sister, don’t you like me calling you that?”
“No, I like it. You can call me whatever you want.”
She snuggled into my arms, such a clingy child.
At this moment, I noticed Little Brother, who was also sucking his fingers and looking at us with longing. Perhaps he was instinctively seeking maternal love.
Both Brother and I lost our mother at a young age. Although we had a stepmother later, the regrets of childhood could not be compensated.
Brother at this age is probably at the age where he fears loneliness the most. Can I go and comfort him?
I tried to smile at Little Brother and give him an encouraging look.
He understood the message I conveyed and ran over happily.
“Sister~ Sister~”
Hehe, you’re as clingy as Keling.
“Hey, Sister, do you want to get married?”
“Married?”
Marriage…
“Of course, every girl dreams of wearing a wedding dress.”
Upon hearing my answer, Keling replied with a hint of disappointment, lowering her head.
“But we probably won’t have a chance to wear wedding dresses anymore…”
As expected, Keling also knows that no matter who the final victor is, it won’t be me and Keling.
It’s impossible for just me and Keling.
“Keling, do you want to wear a wedding dress?”
“Yeah, I’ve always wanted to wear a wedding dress, I dream of wearing a wed…”
“……”
I also used to dream about it, not just once, this thought would pop up almost every day.
Mixed with girlish longing and the pursuit of happiness.
Although I’ve never said it, I actually think about it every day.
But I know it’s impossible.
“I want to wear a wedding dress with Sister…”
“If it’s just wearing a wedding dress, that’s possible. There’s no rule that you must be married to wear one.”
Because Brother really liked that kind of clothing. Like Maid outfits, he also liked the suspender and lace parts.
From this point of view, a wedding dress would definitely fit Brother’s preferences.
Mmm, I want to wear a wedding dress that’s different from traditional ones, without a very long skirt, something very cute. What about you, Sister?”
“Me? Mine… I don’t really like those puffy skirts either. If it were a qipao-style wedding dress, it would be more comfortable.”
“Eh~ Qipao-style wedding dress… that sounds good too~”
“After we get out of here, let’s find some time to design one.”
“Okay~… Doesn’t Sister want a wedding ceremony? Even a symbolic one…”
As expected.
She still wants it.
Still want to walk down the aisle holding his hand, exchanging vows…
Even if there are no spectators, no officiant, in fact, it’s better if there aren’t any.
“Sis—. Your body temperature has risen Oh. Are you thinking of something bad? Hee…”
Just as Keling was being playful, Little Brother suddenly squeezed out from our embrace and ran out.
“Ah! Wait, Brother! Don’t run around!”
Although it’s relatively safe within the pink protective shield arranged by Senior Lanhua, we still can’t let him run amok.
I need to keep an eye on Little Brother.
However, I don’t need to chase him. Little Brother didn’t run far before he bumped into someone and stopped.
No, not a person, that’s…
A black shadow?
Not good!
I felt a bad premonition and immediately stood up.
The black shadow picked up Little Brother and made a sound.
“…Lower body? Well, like this. The second one is in hand.”
Then, the expressionless face turned to me and said.
“The rest, hand them over.”
