Chapter: 114. The Moment of Mutual Understanding (Revised)
The room was so quiet that the sound of both their breathing and heartbeats could be clearly heard.
Kanade stared blankly at the lips of Nagi, which were drawing closer, and instinctively closed his eyes.
—Why am I acting like a girl!?
—Shouldn’t the boy be a little more proactive at this moment?
Kanade cursed his unassertive self in his heart.
But at this moment, his heart was filled with nervousness and the anticipation of kissing Nagi—making him choose to remain still.
Kanade couldn’t help but think, “Having a girlfriend who is proactive in this aspect would be great.”
Although he knew this was somewhat cowardly, think about it for a moment.
If a boy were overly enthusiastic in such matters, it might lead girls to form prejudices like “this guy is a total pervert” or “he’s just interested in my body,” leaving a bad impression both publicly and in the other person’s eyes.
But if the girl is more proactive, most people would only think, “What a loving couple~” or “Her boyfriend really dotes on her~”—these are all positive interpretations, right?
Especially since the other party was Nagi; even if she had less than a one in a million chance of being misunderstood as “lewd,” boys simply had no resistance to a girl like Nagi, who appeared pure and cute yet was somewhat perverted. They would only find her increasingly adorable and charming.
“So—beautiful girls are justice… I can’t take it anymore; I don’t even know what I’m thinking.” Kanade’s mind was a mess.
At that moment, as Kanade’s vision turned completely black, faces from the past uncontrollably flashed through his mind in the vast darkness.
It was a blood pool by the roadside on a rainy night.
The water on the ground reflected the side profile of a girl in the ripples caused by the raindrops.
The stress response made Kanade’s body stiffen suddenly.
It was a nightmare he was unwilling to recall.
Even after realizing everything was not his fault, he—
“Kanade-kun.”
Nagi’s gentle whisper broke Kanade’s thoughts, her breath brushing against his face, pulling his attention from the nightmare to the tip of his nose.
Kanade cracked his eyelids open a little, and what came into view was Nagi’s face right in front of him, so close that he could touch her with just a slight lift of his head, but he restrained himself as if fearing something, maintaining a last thread of distance between their lips.
The distance was so negligible that a finger could hardly fit between them, yet to both of them, it felt as though they were separated by thousands of miles.
Kanade could see Nagi’s cute face flushed bright red, her big watery eyes misted over, looking dazed.
“I’m sorry…” Nagi apologized for reasons unknown, reaching out to gently stroke Kanade’s cheek.
From Nagi, Kanade could feel an endless tender warmth and acceptance.
His mouth slightly opened, wanting to say something, but the nightmare gripped his throat, preventing any sound from escaping.
Everything was clearly seen by Nagi, as if she sensed the unease in his heart.
“It’s okay, I’m here… always…” Nagi revealed a gentle smile.
Upon seeing her blissful and warm smile, Kanade felt a surge of strength returning to his body.
“Kanade-kun, could you take the initiative?” Nagi softly said, “Anytime is fine… I’ll be waiting for you until you’re ready.”
This time, it was Nagi who closed her eyes.
At that moment, the world seemed to fall completely silent, leaving only herself and the girl in front of him.
It felt just like back then.
…
Nagi was striving to maintain her balance, keeping their lips close together.
She could clearly sense Kanade’s fear and unease fluttering against her face with every breath.
That was the mistake she had committed years ago, which left a severe psychological wound in Kanade’s heart.
To heal that wound, it had to be faced and crossed by him personally.
All she could do was wait quietly for him.
Unexpectedly, Nagi’s heart was incredibly calm.
She had initially only wanted to tease Kanade a little, testing how far he could go when tempted, but after seeing his stress response, a twinge of guilt surged within her. She realized that this kiss’s foreplay could not simply be stopped in a “just kidding” manner.
They were clearly kissing, yet for some reason, there was no sense of rejection, even though she had imagined this kind of future countless times when making plans before—back then, it was all about “completing a task.”
Now, the mindset was completely different.
It was not for “pleasure,” nor for “a plan,” but rather a more pure, natural act.
In the tiny distance between them was not just Kanade’s psychological trauma from the past, but also Nagi’s own barriers regarding her past.
In this moment, deep within her heart, Nagi yearned for Kanade to take the initiative, to break through that barrier for her, allowing her to truly belong to “this world”—
She didn’t know how long had passed.
Maybe a minute, or perhaps half an hour.
During this time, the only thing they could feel was each other; the entire world seemed to be reduced to just the two of them.
…
“Nagi…” Kanade couldn’t help but reach out and place his hand on the girl’s cheek before him. It was because of her strength and tenderness that he was able to step out of the shadow of the past.
If he could be with her, he believed he could overcome any difficulty—
Kanade mustered the final bit of strength to gently lift his head.
The images from the nightmare flashed continuously before his eyes.
But his gaze remained focused on the girl before him.
“Nagi, I love you.”
All the fear and unease vanished the moment his lips met hers.
It was not because a biological instinct was fulfilled, but rather a merging of something at a higher level, a feeling called “love” that filled the void in his heart and soothed all his scars.
It was different from the past.
At this moment, Kanade’s first feeling was not the softness of Nagi’s lips, but a profound sense of happiness.
This kiss was not a prelude to biological instinct; it was proof of their mutual understanding.
Perhaps, this was the true meaning of a first kiss—
…
…
Since it was truly their first kiss, it was best to stop once they had confirmed their mutual feelings.
“It should be this way,” Kanade thought.
But unfortunately, since it was his first time dating, he didn’t know how long a first kiss should last, so he thought he might as well continue until Nagi was satisfied and let go—that was a mistake.
The development exceeded Kanade’s expectations.
“Mm-hah…”
The sound of wetness accompanied by heavy breathing echoed in his ears, and the feelings of happiness and excitement brought his heartbeat to the brink of explosion.
Not only did Nagi not pull away, but after the initial stiffness from their lips touching, she suddenly became extremely passionate and kissed him back with fervor.
It was not a pure kiss akin to a dragonfly skimming the water.
If Kanade were to describe it—this was a scene only seen in a little worn-out book.
Clearly it was their “first kiss.”
But Kanade could feel the ultimate touch of Nagi’s soft tongue licking his lips, exploring the gaps in his mouth as if attempting to pry it open with the soft cartilage of her tongue—
Even as someone who had never dated before, Kanade understood what this signal represented, having seen various artistic works in the past.
Unable to refuse this signal, both psychologically and physically, Kanade had no choice but to open his lips.
At the same time, Nagi cleverly adjusted the angle of her face, and their slightly parted mouths interlocked like some gear.
Her slick, petite soft tongue entered him without any obstruction.
The teeth at the outermost layer offered only slight resistance. To avoid hurting Nagi’s delicate tongue, Kanade had to open his mouth as wide as possible, guiding the path of the foreign object in his mouth with his own tongue.
It was as if she finally found her real target and intertwined with him.
“!?”
—N-Nagi! Isn’t this action too, too lewd!?
—Choosing French despite it being the first time…
Before Kanade could finish his internal commentary, the next moment, he felt a kind of sucking and liquid exchange.
“!!!?” This made Kanade feel once again shocked.
—So sweet!?
Unlike the lemon flavor from back then, this time Kanade experienced a sweeter, lingering taste.
“Mm-hah… wait, mm!?” Kanade tried to stop Nagi during their shared breathing, but thanks to her skilled breath control, he barely had time to say a word before her passionate and intense assault struck again.
In this sweet and fierce kiss, Kanade felt that his mouth was entirely covered with a new color that belonged solely to the girl before him, while the sensations from the past kiss were completely replaced, making it impossible to recall what that felt like.
That was Nagi’s plan.
Since the previous mistake had left such a heavy psychological wound.
This time, she would use an even sweeter, more intense, and passionate impression to overwrite it, erasing all those bad memories—
—W-What’s going on? Is Nagi really that bold and clingy?
Nagi’s actions gave Kanade the sensation of “occupying territory, declaring sovereignty.”
However, what truly surprised Kanade was the sensation from his lower abdomen.
It seemed that while they kissed, Nagi’s slim waist, sitting on his abdomen, unconsciously began to sway back and forth, as if seeking more.
—So lewd!?
Moreover, Kanade caught a glimpse through his slightly opened eyelids of Nagi’s half-closed eyes, her gaze clouded as if pink hearts would spring from her pupils at any moment.
—W-Why does a kiss make me feel so emotionally charged!?
Kanade was taken aback.
But he seemed to have no right to say that.
Because the underlying reason lay in the previous examinations he had conducted for Nagi, where every night would begin with checking her mouth followed by reaction tests. This led to Nagi’s mouth becoming a trained sensitive area, where a simple kiss would trigger a switch, putting her body in a state of craving for release.
And Kanade’s condition was not much better.
Such an aggressive act of lust was clearly too stimulating for this innocent boy, leading to some part of his body reaching its limit, not to mention that while Nagi swayed her waist, her soft, perky bottom just so happened to press against his—
…
Just when Kanade could no longer hold back.
Nagi suddenly stopped.
Their lips pulled apart, leaving behind a thread of saliva connecting them.
“Hehe, I’m sorry…” Nagi lowered her flushed face, laughing shyly, “It was supposed to be such an important first kiss… yet it turned out like this—!?”
Before Nagi could finish, Kanade, sitting beneath her, reached out and gently wrapped his arms around her body.
“…Kanade-Kun?”
A gentle yet urgent push turned their relationship upside down in an instant.
This time, Kanade did not wait for Nagi to say anything before pressing his lips against her small mouth to stop her.
The first kiss of “occupying territory, declaring sovereignty” continued—
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The next morning.
Nagi curled up in her bed, wrapping her head in the blanket.
Just recalling what had happened last night made her cute face flush at a visible speed.
“Wow wow wow… I’ve been exposed—! Kanade-kun discovered that I’m actually a lewd person… and I even made that kind of noise…” Nagi’s pupils trembled wildly.
Last night, after being pushed down by Kanade in his room, although he ultimately restrained his instincts and did not “hug” her.
But the routine she had undergone during her late-night examinations was implemented with their lips still touching… no, not just once.
If her peak of pleasure at that moment was to be used as a standard.
There were about four… maybe even five times. When she left Kanade’s room, her waist and legs were both sore.
Because in the past, she had to feign sleep to suppress her sounds, this time there was no need for constraint, allowing Nagi to experience a sense of freedom, failing to manage her expressions and sounds on multiple occasions while their faces were so close together—
“I-I’ve been seen~~~ If Kanade-kun finds me so lewd… n-no, no, calm down. How could any boy dislike their beautiful childhood friend showing a lewd side in bed?! ” Nagi secretly comforted herself in her heart.
“But the utterly uncontrollable lewd moans I couldn’t suppress… I-I’ve heard that only a small number of men have such a preference…” Nagi maintained her head down posture, covering her burning cheeks with both hands.
Just then.
Knock knock.
“Hey~ Nagi-nee, if you don’t get up, you’re going to be late~” Yukino’s knocking and calling startled Nagi.
“Y-Yes! I’m getting up now—”
After a quick wash and changing into her uniform, Nagi went downstairs.
She saw Kanade, Mana, and Yukino all waiting for her on the first floor.
However, the moment she made eye contact with Kanade, he immediately shyly averted his gaze.
It seemed he had finally calmed down after the impulse, realizing how rude it was to have played around with his childhood friend and made her make sounds that a beautiful girl shouldn’t make last night.
To take revenge for Kanade’s actions last night, Nagi went downstairs and intentionally displayed a bashful yet uneasy expression, hiding behind Mana while sneaking glances at Kanade.
“…Tsukimi-kun?” Mana immediately noticed the odd behavior of the two.
In order to create a misunderstanding for Mana, Nagi pretended to stagger a bit, as if her legs were weak—
“Tsukimi-kun, do you… have an interest in such a little Nagi-chan…?”
“Ah? N-No! It’s not like that, let me explain—”
“Okay then, explain?”
“…I’m sorry!” Only then did Kanade realize that he seemed to have no room for explanation. Whether it was a misunderstanding or the truth, he could only await his judgment of death.
He knelt down in front of Mana, whose gaze was icy, to admit his fault.
The result of this matter was that Kanade would receive a good beating over the next few days and would not be allowed to come within three meters of Nagi without Mana’s permission.
